hey, soul sister.

you know the song. :)

wow. so it appears no one blogs anymore! whatever shall we do? i know, blog? :D
okay so. woah. what isn't there to talk about. i don't think i've ever been so desperate to get out and go somewhere. everything here is eating me alive. i just want to leave. i swear, i'm not going to last these last few months of school without going crazy. it's tedious and HORRIBLE.
the only travelling i do experience seems to be on the train home. home being the annoying word. coz that's where i'll end up. you travel for half an hour, and yous ee the country, and just as you think you're gonna get somewhere you have to get off because it's your stop. then you're driven back home, where everything starts again in just a matter of hours.
i've been tempted just to stay on the trian. to keep going. buy a ticket somewhere. anywhere. never happens. the guts are there, but the willpower isn't.

basically, life is tedious. i'm fed up, and i feel so unconfident lately. but who cares? if you're you, then everythings okay. :)

lots of love,

kat.

blogging.

29th january 2010.

today i became iller, captained a hockey team, won a hockey match, lost 3 hockey matches, let my best friend down, took a posh train, cried, laughed, smiled, realised my mum is the best person on my planet, realised i really miss my family, realised who my true friends are, decided to stop being horrible about everyone because they're all amazing people, and played guitar.

today was an average day.

right now i am writing a song. i don't know what the lyrics or the music is yet. because i'm not writing it down. (so not really writing a song tbh)

i'm happy. :) i think. i mean, yeah, i'm starting to think that i'm drifting from my closest friends, i'm a let down and an all round 'gets everything wrong all the time' person, but i'm happy. :)

i really like trains. :)
i decided this on the way home. the reason being when i'm on a train i feel like i'm floating. because i can't see the track and when the windows are really clean i put my head against the glass and it feels like i am just drifting through the trees. i also like trains because they feel like you're seeing life from the inside, not the outside. like instead of taking the windy roads you just dart straight through the middle but you aren't allowed to see where it takes you because before you know it you have to get off. like they're telling you that shortcuts never lead anywhere and you may see something for a moment, but you will have to take the long road to be able to make anything of what the moment meant..

i want to write. that's all i care about now.
i want to write and then get into uni, and then write even more.
and then get a job and write again. :)

hello by the way. i forgot to mention i'm blogging. so erm.. i'm blogging. :)

kat.

all of your life you've gone your own way, so give me this chance, and i'll go mine..

title: proud - matthew thomas

i haven't blogged in a while. and i don't expect many to still be checking whether i have. which i sprobably why i've chosen to blog here and not my tumblr.

i'm sick.
i don't know why, and i don't know what it is. but it won't go away, and for that i hate my body at the moment. :(
i wish it would go away. it's so annoying.

i guess there are times in your life where you wish you knew, what the heck was going on i mean. but you just don't. this is one of those times.
then there's those times where you wonde rwhat the heck you've done to deserve it. this is one of those times too.
and then, there's those times when you realise who is really there, and who offers their support, but really gives nothing.
there are the times when you have to fight. because walking away doesn't prove fast enough, and running means retracing tracks. so when forward is the only direction, and there's a giant barrier in the way, do you turn around and walk backwards, or do you break the barrier no matter how long and how hard it is?

in other news. happy birthday daddy. :) i love you. you've always shown me the light, even when your own began to dim. i'm glad to call myself your daughter, even after everything we've been through.

love hugs + barriers that are years old,

kat.

two thousand and ten.

woah. it's 2010! goodbye to the noughties and hello teenies! :D
so i'm SO sorry i haven't blogged in SO long, but i've been so busy and lazy to blog as i've been more on my tumblr :)
so i bet it's not just me that's noticed this WEATHER. i swear it's either snowing, windy, sleeting or raining 99% of the day. o.0 but that's okay, because my school's been shut for like a week longer than it should have been *happy dance*.
only problem is, i'm bored of being at home now. school was open today but the weather meant the effort of me going into school just wasn't worth it. :)
i'll be going in tomorrow though. :)

meanwhile. i have a bubba sister. :D:D very exciting stuff. :) the pictures are on my faceybook if you'd like to see her. :)

anyways, i know this has been so short but i don't have muchies to say. :P

lots of love,

katmunch

raise it up.

title: rabbit heart - florence and the machine.

hi there everyone. sorry i haven't blogged in so long, i've taken a lust for tumblr at the moment so blogging here has been scarce. :-) also, i'm on my computer a lot less, so that's why. not that many people read this really, but oh well.

so right now i'm sitting on my bed in pitch black with just my ipod on full blast in my ears. bit of death cab for cutie is anyones guilty pleasure.
'what's the time?' i hear you say. 4.15pm. not too late, but dark nevertheless.
the early darkness starts to make me more tired. infact, i wish it was summer, things were so much brighter then. :-)

christmas!

i didn't do too much. was woken at around 7 to open freaking presents, of which i recieved two. (N). but that okay, as i also got a stocking and a wad of cash which suits me nicely. although it was more than the presents. it was just nice to have everyone happy for a while. :-)

brother came home too. it was nice for the first couple of days, but i guess you can OVERstay sometimes. i mean, i love him lots, but he is now 'bored' of me, and so i can do little but to hate him back until he comes 'round.

ahhh.. the fray. how lovely. :-)
hahaha my ipod is on shuffle.

it's funny because there's barely anyone who's actually gonna read this. but i kinda like the outlet and to talk to myself is a bit. weird.

so why not be brutally honest, lets pretend NO ONE will read this, eh?

hello diary,

i'm worried lately, because it seems many of my friends have changed their opinions of me. whether it be being completely off with me (undoubtedly fair enough as i accused them of being bisexual), or just changing their opinion of the way i am. it's just annoying. i think 2010 is going to be my year of not as much caring. i mean i love ALL of my friends, but that's all i ever do. and it still seems that some where along the line i'm fucking up. whether i'm bein too 'selfish' because i can't just be friends with everyone or i'm just a pure 'bitch'. i think i'm going to start being my COMPLETE self, not changing to peoples ideal version of me, and just being myself with EVERYONE, if they don't like that, then that's their problem, right? :-) i can't be who you want me to be, as much as i love ya. they say it's all about change and adaptation, so why not try staying put, and just being yourself. :)

jason mraz. i love you. :D haha. - shuffle, again. ;)

ah. merry christmas world.
i'm bored now.
this was fun!
i hope no one reads this, it's SO WEIRD. sorry! :P

love, hugs + mr. a-z.

kat.

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow..

title : let it snow - dean martin.

hey homies. :-)
guess what? you'll never get it..
IT'S CHRISTMAS. ;D

okay, so overall, i wasn't that excited. infact i'm still not 'eyes popping out of face jumping around stabbing people' excited, but the christmas spirit has finally taken it's toll. :-) i'm not sure why i'm not as excited this year. i think it's because i forgot it was chritmas until like 2 weeks before, and then i got ill so i was focusing on that.
but it's fine because I'M BETTER NOW. ;D - ish.

so anyways, i know i haven't been overly blogging, due to the reason above, but don't worry your little heads because i'm here! :-) my 131st blog ever. :-o

so in chulmleigh, they have a lighting thing for charity every year and this year a competitor lives just down my road. the house was gorgeous, and as soon as night time drew in i had to go take a picccture. :-) it doesn't do it enough justice because my camera kept playing up so it's quite blurry. :-(
that's all for now. if you would like more regular updates on what i'm doing, and are interested in typography/photography/general awesome quotes then head over to my tumblr page ; www.starsfallingdown.tumblr.com :-) enjoy my friends, and have a very VERY merry christmas. :-)

love, hugs + two turtle doves.

kat.

half of my heart's got a grip on the situation, half of my heart takes time..

title: half of my heart - john mayer featuring taylor swift.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G song. ;D if you haven't already; LISTEN.

so hello there. :-)

it's.. what is it? 8 sleeps 'til the big day?

ahh christmas. again? it's gonna be my sixteenth one! ahh jeez, you'd think the excitment would rub off - which it did, but now i'm BUZZING. :D

so i started this blog like.. 2 hours ago and then forgot, made a cheesecake, wrapped presents then came back. dork. :P
hey, i just recieved a congratulations from the history department. LOL! awh.

so relationships..
isn't it funny, how there's always a person you can click with no matter how far apart you've been? i mean we all have that person right? whether it be a parent, a best friend, a long distant relative, an ex, whatever it is, it's always just 'fine' when you talk again. just 'perfect'. :-)
i've experienced a few of these moments. and i have to say it's the best feeling in the world. just being able to fall right back into place, effortlessly.
all i'm saying is if you have that with someone, anyone, you should cherish that. i never realised how rare and spontaneous it is to KNOW you have someone there, foralways, no matter the time spent apart. so this one's for you guys and all those missing people who really aren't missing at all. go for it. give them a call, you'll be surprised. :-)

love, hugs + mistletoe wishes,

kat. :-)