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29th january 2010.

today i became iller, captained a hockey team, won a hockey match, lost 3 hockey matches, let my best friend down, took a posh train, cried, laughed, smiled, realised my mum is the best person on my planet, realised i really miss my family, realised who my true friends are, decided to stop being horrible about everyone because they're all amazing people, and played guitar.

today was an average day.

right now i am writing a song. i don't know what the lyrics or the music is yet. because i'm not writing it down. (so not really writing a song tbh)

i'm happy. :) i think. i mean, yeah, i'm starting to think that i'm drifting from my closest friends, i'm a let down and an all round 'gets everything wrong all the time' person, but i'm happy. :)

i really like trains. :)
i decided this on the way home. the reason being when i'm on a train i feel like i'm floating. because i can't see the track and when the windows are really clean i put my head against the glass and it feels like i am just drifting through the trees. i also like trains because they feel like you're seeing life from the inside, not the outside. like instead of taking the windy roads you just dart straight through the middle but you aren't allowed to see where it takes you because before you know it you have to get off. like they're telling you that shortcuts never lead anywhere and you may see something for a moment, but you will have to take the long road to be able to make anything of what the moment meant..

i want to write. that's all i care about now.
i want to write and then get into uni, and then write even more.
and then get a job and write again. :)

hello by the way. i forgot to mention i'm blogging. so erm.. i'm blogging. :)

kat.

all of your life you've gone your own way, so give me this chance, and i'll go mine..

title: proud - matthew thomas

i haven't blogged in a while. and i don't expect many to still be checking whether i have. which i sprobably why i've chosen to blog here and not my tumblr.

i'm sick.
i don't know why, and i don't know what it is. but it won't go away, and for that i hate my body at the moment. :(
i wish it would go away. it's so annoying.

i guess there are times in your life where you wish you knew, what the heck was going on i mean. but you just don't. this is one of those times.
then there's those times where you wonde rwhat the heck you've done to deserve it. this is one of those times too.
and then, there's those times when you realise who is really there, and who offers their support, but really gives nothing.
there are the times when you have to fight. because walking away doesn't prove fast enough, and running means retracing tracks. so when forward is the only direction, and there's a giant barrier in the way, do you turn around and walk backwards, or do you break the barrier no matter how long and how hard it is?

in other news. happy birthday daddy. :) i love you. you've always shown me the light, even when your own began to dim. i'm glad to call myself your daughter, even after everything we've been through.

love hugs + barriers that are years old,

kat.

two thousand and ten.

woah. it's 2010! goodbye to the noughties and hello teenies! :D
so i'm SO sorry i haven't blogged in SO long, but i've been so busy and lazy to blog as i've been more on my tumblr :)
so i bet it's not just me that's noticed this WEATHER. i swear it's either snowing, windy, sleeting or raining 99% of the day. o.0 but that's okay, because my school's been shut for like a week longer than it should have been *happy dance*.
only problem is, i'm bored of being at home now. school was open today but the weather meant the effort of me going into school just wasn't worth it. :)
i'll be going in tomorrow though. :)

meanwhile. i have a bubba sister. :D:D very exciting stuff. :) the pictures are on my faceybook if you'd like to see her. :)

anyways, i know this has been so short but i don't have muchies to say. :P

lots of love,

katmunch