raise it up.

title: rabbit heart - florence and the machine.

hi there everyone. sorry i haven't blogged in so long, i've taken a lust for tumblr at the moment so blogging here has been scarce. :-) also, i'm on my computer a lot less, so that's why. not that many people read this really, but oh well.

so right now i'm sitting on my bed in pitch black with just my ipod on full blast in my ears. bit of death cab for cutie is anyones guilty pleasure.
'what's the time?' i hear you say. 4.15pm. not too late, but dark nevertheless.
the early darkness starts to make me more tired. infact, i wish it was summer, things were so much brighter then. :-)

christmas!

i didn't do too much. was woken at around 7 to open freaking presents, of which i recieved two. (N). but that okay, as i also got a stocking and a wad of cash which suits me nicely. although it was more than the presents. it was just nice to have everyone happy for a while. :-)

brother came home too. it was nice for the first couple of days, but i guess you can OVERstay sometimes. i mean, i love him lots, but he is now 'bored' of me, and so i can do little but to hate him back until he comes 'round.

ahhh.. the fray. how lovely. :-)
hahaha my ipod is on shuffle.

it's funny because there's barely anyone who's actually gonna read this. but i kinda like the outlet and to talk to myself is a bit. weird.

so why not be brutally honest, lets pretend NO ONE will read this, eh?

hello diary,

i'm worried lately, because it seems many of my friends have changed their opinions of me. whether it be being completely off with me (undoubtedly fair enough as i accused them of being bisexual), or just changing their opinion of the way i am. it's just annoying. i think 2010 is going to be my year of not as much caring. i mean i love ALL of my friends, but that's all i ever do. and it still seems that some where along the line i'm fucking up. whether i'm bein too 'selfish' because i can't just be friends with everyone or i'm just a pure 'bitch'. i think i'm going to start being my COMPLETE self, not changing to peoples ideal version of me, and just being myself with EVERYONE, if they don't like that, then that's their problem, right? :-) i can't be who you want me to be, as much as i love ya. they say it's all about change and adaptation, so why not try staying put, and just being yourself. :)

jason mraz. i love you. :D haha. - shuffle, again. ;)

ah. merry christmas world.
i'm bored now.
this was fun!
i hope no one reads this, it's SO WEIRD. sorry! :P

love, hugs + mr. a-z.

kat.

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow..

title : let it snow - dean martin.

hey homies. :-)
guess what? you'll never get it..
IT'S CHRISTMAS. ;D

okay, so overall, i wasn't that excited. infact i'm still not 'eyes popping out of face jumping around stabbing people' excited, but the christmas spirit has finally taken it's toll. :-) i'm not sure why i'm not as excited this year. i think it's because i forgot it was chritmas until like 2 weeks before, and then i got ill so i was focusing on that.
but it's fine because I'M BETTER NOW. ;D - ish.

so anyways, i know i haven't been overly blogging, due to the reason above, but don't worry your little heads because i'm here! :-) my 131st blog ever. :-o

so in chulmleigh, they have a lighting thing for charity every year and this year a competitor lives just down my road. the house was gorgeous, and as soon as night time drew in i had to go take a picccture. :-) it doesn't do it enough justice because my camera kept playing up so it's quite blurry. :-(
that's all for now. if you would like more regular updates on what i'm doing, and are interested in typography/photography/general awesome quotes then head over to my tumblr page ; www.starsfallingdown.tumblr.com :-) enjoy my friends, and have a very VERY merry christmas. :-)

love, hugs + two turtle doves.

kat.

half of my heart's got a grip on the situation, half of my heart takes time..

title: half of my heart - john mayer featuring taylor swift.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G song. ;D if you haven't already; LISTEN.

so hello there. :-)

it's.. what is it? 8 sleeps 'til the big day?

ahh christmas. again? it's gonna be my sixteenth one! ahh jeez, you'd think the excitment would rub off - which it did, but now i'm BUZZING. :D

so i started this blog like.. 2 hours ago and then forgot, made a cheesecake, wrapped presents then came back. dork. :P
hey, i just recieved a congratulations from the history department. LOL! awh.

so relationships..
isn't it funny, how there's always a person you can click with no matter how far apart you've been? i mean we all have that person right? whether it be a parent, a best friend, a long distant relative, an ex, whatever it is, it's always just 'fine' when you talk again. just 'perfect'. :-)
i've experienced a few of these moments. and i have to say it's the best feeling in the world. just being able to fall right back into place, effortlessly.
all i'm saying is if you have that with someone, anyone, you should cherish that. i never realised how rare and spontaneous it is to KNOW you have someone there, foralways, no matter the time spent apart. so this one's for you guys and all those missing people who really aren't missing at all. go for it. give them a call, you'll be surprised. :-)

love, hugs + mistletoe wishes,

kat. :-)

in the middle of the night when i'm in this dream it's like a million little stars spelling out your name..

title: untouchable - taylor swift.

one of my favourite songs from her new 'fearless' album. amazing amazing album from an equally amazing artist, i honestly don't care who hates her, she's so talented. :-)

i'd like to do a blog straight from my mind, that for once i do not think too hard about what i'm going to write or ponder over different situations.

i just watched the movie 'bandslam'. it was so amazing. i'm serious. i mean i've never been into this whole disney scene, but i've gotta say, the film was AWESOME. totally recommend it. anyways, it COMPLETELY influenced me in such a random way. like i know this is no american high school, but i'd like to make more of an effort with how i AM around different people i don't know. and that i really don't make much effort with things such as guys or anything anymore. be nice to get back into the frame of mind that yeah, it's school, but it's also the main part of my life and i take that SO forgranted. :)

ahh, 'forever and always' an amazing song and the piano is sensational. i want to learn it, but there are no sheets or tutorials online. i think i'm gonna try work it out by ear when/if i can. :-)

do you ever get those moments when you're in a completer state of thought? you know those moments when like everything seems so special and the best music and perfect surroundings can just make you think. i'm like that right now. it's rare i get a total sense of peace and quiet until the night time, i think that's maybe why i sleep so late.
you know, it's funny, i don't even know who reads these blogs. infact, i have a bet it's no more than 5 people. but i like that. hello. :-)

it's 00.23am i really can't be bothered to go to sleep when i'm in such a thought provoking state of mind. but i have a hunch my life from this day onwards will change. i don't know why, and i don't know how, but i've been told to ALWAYS trust my instincts. i guess we'll just have to wait and see.

love, hugs and the rest is still unwritten,

kat.

everything looks perfect from far away..

title: such great heights - the postal service.

have you ever wondered if there's something we're supposed to do?
whether although we don't know how we're going to end up or what's going to happen until it does, it was always going to happen anyway?
have you ever wondered how pretty the world is?
whether it's too beautiful to have been created, and that MAYBE it's only possible because it's THAT spontaneous?

lately, questions seem to be my main forte. i have been questioning everything and i don't know why. why did my life have to work out how it was? is there somethig i'm supposed to do but i just haven't realised yet? :)

i'm confused about my future too. i've decided law isn't for me. and i really want to do journalism. writing was always going to be my thing anyways, lets be honest. :)

lately i've become so musical too. it's become my OUTLET :) i mean i'm finding i rely less and less on my friends and so much more on my independence. i'm starting to wonder if this is a good or bad thing?

well, i don't know. conversations are forever being had at home. and bitching is forever occuring at school, i think the subject of change is the core of everything at the moment. but is there really a set route? and can we change that?

in the words of taylor swift, i guess we should never be too afraid to 'jump then fall'.

love, hugs + music and lyrics,

kat.

because i can.

hello there squishies.
i KNOW i haven't blogged in ages.
i also KNOW i'm a failblogger.
but it's FINE. :) i've been SOO busy

so here's a RANDOM squishtogether of my life as it is at the moment. i shall resort to bullet points as i physically cannot organise my life in any other way.

- loz came round and we had an amazing weekend.
- i've gotten well interested in baking again.
- my brother bought me a full size drumkit as a birthday surprise.
- i don't want to do law anymore.
- i am debating my journalism career once again.
- i got an A* in my geography mock exam.
- i got REALLY happy.
- i got really down.
- i really miss some people.
- i'm not THAT excited about xmas this year.
- i can't wait 'til xmas though.

BAMJABAMBAM. there we go.

simples. (-:

see you gays soon.

love hugs + points of bullet,

kat.

before we take this road, before you change my mind..

title: to love again - alesha dixon.

i'm not sure the intention of this here blog. mainly because i haven't blogged in so long. but also because i need to let some steam off.
i don't know what's wrong with me lately. i feel like i'm losing touch with who i really was. i guess i had the same thing when i was about.. thirteen, but since then i've been fine. whereas lately i've been feeling so out of touch with myself it's unbelievable.
i think to be honest, i just need to shut myself up sometimes. i've realised i'm far more bitchy than i ever was, whether it be down to influence or the fact that year 11 has made me think i'm everything i'm not. i'm gonna change. i hate being this moody. i'ma try be a bit more upbeat and social. coz this is killing me :-( anyways, to anyone who's ever felt like i've been off with them, moody, completely two faced or horrible towards them. sorry. :-)

so today i had my english presentation. i feel it went pretty well, although i get so scared at audiences i often freeze up, so i'll be happy to get a B or C for this one. :-)
there's not much else to report. got a charity netball match going on on the 11th so park school people PAY TO WATCH it's for a good cause. also there's christmas concert when now? 16th? i dunno. but i wanna go to that tooooo. :-)

so not much happening really. i've got like zilch to say today, but i promised myself 125 posts ago i would never delete a single word of my blog. and i don't plan on changing now. :-)

love, hugs and emotional blank,

kat.

i thought i thought of every single possibilty..

title: haven't met you yet - michael buble.

just learnt this song on piano. it's amazing and i love it. oldtimes now but still a great '09 track. :-) really easy to play too. :-)

so what in the world changes your day for the better?

i've been thinking about this question, because i find it really great how it's NEVER EVER the big things that make your day better. it's always the little things that make the difference.
for examples, my day is always made better when the drive to school has sunshine, because i like the trees in the sun and it makes me happyful. :-) it's also made better when the radiator is free at break or when a spontaneous compliment is given. however, if a huge thing happened like.. somebody gave me a giant teddy bear. i would just be like 'WOAH' but then if i had seven million little BAD things afterwards the teddy bear wouldn't be worth it anymore. :-)

so what makes your day that little it better? is there a certain thing you EXPECT everyday? or do you just take it as it comes? is there something you feel your day would be lost without, or even someone?

i challenge you to think about that thing. coz tbh we ALL have it. and i challenge you to show appreciation for it in one way or another. because i never realised until recently the amount of stuff i take forgranted.

fyi, i'm going to take a picture of those trees tomorrow. first thing.

what are you gonna do? tomorrow, that little thing could be gone. :-o

love, hugs + kodak moments,

kat. :-)

i just want your kisss boyyy.

title: pumpkin soup - kate nash.

i like kate nash. she's awesome. nickie just mentioned her so i thought i'd go listen some more. missed her filling my ears. her voice is the sex. she makes my ears pregnant. :-)

hello.

usually i have a blogging topic. but today that is.. lacking. so just hello will do.

i'm kinda dreading cooking tomorrow. i really cannot be bothered to cook so much in one go, and not even COOK. DEVELOP. AND to add to that i've never made what i'm making before. :-/
oh well. i'm sure it'll be okay. :-)
also got an english presentation, which i was pooing myself about, but i seriously lack in caring anymore so yeah. rather get a good grade then just panic. lol.

listening to all my october music. it's strange how music preferences change SO quickly, and what is once you're favourite song, can quickly become less interesting than ever before. haha.
death cab for cutie, i love you. hahhaa. :-)

so i feel sick. :-(

anyways. today has been fun. although the netball match was awful coz i played like a right div. hahhaa. last one of the season though, i am gutted. gonna miss you guys. :-( i hope i can somehow do something gym-wise soon. i need a membership. gonna get one :-) decided this earlier.

i'm so tired? is it me or does the darknesss make you tired? ahahhaa.

where's my camera mum? i can't find it. :-/

anyways. that was just a mishmash. i'm having a good week. ish. just wish i could have a day off. :-)

hahaha. not that i don't have sat and sunday :-)

anyways.

love, hugs + tiredness galore,

kat.

the only difference between me and you, is that i wrote the songs and you didn't.

title: the words of jamie, the drummer from noisettes. so true.

SUP GUYS.

just had the best night out at the square with our christmas light switch on.
noisettes were AMAZING and dolly rockers were pretty cool despite the fact they're like.. 5 HAHAHA. :)

so nice to see the christmas spirit (even in the rain) throughout everyone in barnstaple. i love it when everyone comes together for a night out. :) was lovely to see everyone tooo. i mean there's so much shit that goes through our group per week it's nice just to have a good time. even if it was FREEEZING. :)

so the biggest part of my evening was on my way home.
me and hly were outside the train station and we turn around and who do we see?
THE DRUMMER OF THE NOISETTES. okay. the guy we've JUST seen live, and ROCKED out barnstaple, was there. BEHIND ME.

he asks where the platform is and we show him, so he says thanks and walks off. me and hly just sit there in complete awe bedfore hly has to go home.
so then i decide to go over and ask for his autograph and after holding his suitcase for him while he finds a pen, and then signs my train ticket. :D
then a girl takes a picture of me and him for me, which was lovely. and we spent the rest of the time waiting for the train and having a lovely conversation. he speaks SO much truths..

''the only difference between me and you, is that i wrote the songs and you didn't''

''you write ten songs and you don't think that they're gonna make anything or go with each other, i mean seriously, go and write ten songs, you could be me EASY. i mean if i meet any celebrity i go weak at the knees TOO!''

''i was talking to brandon flowers, and i mean, he's SO real, he just writes about what's around him. that's why the killers are gonna last. i mean lily allen, fair enough love you're pretty, but what's all this diamond lyrics crap? she aint gonna last coz no one GETS IT''

''tbh, i thought go baby go baby go, that song, was the worst set of lyrics ever, never thought it would be a HIT!''

he was the BEST. :)

i love being at the right place, at the RIGHT time..


love, hugs + christmas twinkles,

kat.

i got soul but i'm not a soldier..

title: i got soul - young soul rebels (pixie lott, n-dubs, tinchy stryder, chipmunk, mpho, vv brown etc) in aid of war child and the work they dooo.

title isn't to do with todays post. but it's about charity and the song is amazing if you haven't heard it already..

CHILDREN IN NEED

my personal favourite time of the year. watching everyone come together is an amaazing feat in britain and i think it's probably the time in the year i feel most patriotic tbh. (: i love being british when i see what the country can do together :) it's amazing. and i'm proud. :)

children and need helps SO many people and even the smallest things make the difference. i was so pleased to see our school contributing with busking and stuff, and this year is gonna be the biggest. i'm going to stay up until children and need is over, because i love it. lets hope the total is biggg this year so we can help the biggest amount of people ever!

you guys can donate online on www.bbc.co.uk/pudsey and follow the links. please donate guys. i'm going to as soon as. (:

the running total for the south west as of now is 134,574 pounds. :) and is RISING RAPIDLY. so excited. :) every video makes me cry i swear! :)

btw, don't you just LOVE pudsey?

i don't know anyone directly but i'm so glad i don't, that's very ill or needs help from children in need. but why let that stop you? DONATE. :) it's SO worth it. trust me. :) do it for kids like us.. kids who wouldn't have our opportunities or support without the help of children in need. s'what us teens are all about right?

love, hugs + pudsey bears,

kat.

just say yes. just say there's nothing holding you back..

title: just say yes - snow patrol.

i love snow patrol. they're AMAZING. new song, go check it out.

so this isn't a blog. but it's something very close to my heart..

''i never lived as intensely as i do right now. i'm thankful for everything. i hope i did my best to be a good person. live life to the fullest'' - dustin.

waiting.

i can't imagine how many times you wait in a day. there's the smallest things like.. waiting for a bus, waiting for a lift, waiting for your computer to load. but maybe sometimes we're all waiting for the biggest things to happen, to change, to transform.
i can think of a million and one things in a day that i wait for. but what are you waiting for?
i'm unsure if you know, but i follow a guy on twitter called dustin. he has the heart of a twenty year old. but it's not his..
he's waiting.
he's waiting to die.
and he's waiting by sharing everything, his whole experience, with everyone.
i can't imagine what it would be like to wait to leave. i mean, we spend 90% of our lives waiting for something. but what if you already new your fate, and all of those things needn't resemble ANY importance anymore. what would you wait for? would you hold on? i don't know what i'd do.
so what is best for those who have to wait? to do that, or to continue? i know that sometimes waiting is the only option. and it's the climax that brings the pain, or the happiness, or the outburst of emotion. but it's the waiting that holds it all in, just waiting for it to pop. just.. waiting..
so in the words of john mayer. i think there's just one thing we ARE all waiting for.
we're ALL waiting on the world to change. change our lives? end our lives? make our day, happy, sad, or even just.. emotionless.
i know you wait. we all wait. but what are you waiting for?
sometimes. you've gotta hope. because if you're waiting in line, it means there's a possibility you'll make it to the number one spot. right?

love, hugs + a life long queue to conquer,

kat.


dedicated to everyone who experiences loss, happiness, and has ever had to wait , or even had to watch someone wait for news they don't want to hear.
stay strong.

maybe in the years to come, i'll truly understand..

title: do it all over again - sapphire elia

i really miss brittania high, it was such an amazing series. i wish they'd do another one. :( shame it's over forever. amazing song, one of my favourites from the soundtrack, if you haven't heard it you need to.

hello everybody. :)
today has been a lovely day, although stuffed, once again, with coursework, i've enjoyed it. :)
i've not really done a lot though, a history essay this morning and an A3 sheet of food. then spent this evening just doing some revision for my EXAMS tomorrow. :)
i'm so loving robbie williams new album, newton faulkners + jamie cullums new cover of rihanna's 'please don't stop the music'. if you haven't heard it already youtube it. :)
i've also found a new a capella band on youtube called green envy. they cover such great heights by the postal service and fidelity by regina spektor if you guys wanna check it out. it's also on spotify to listen. ;)
so i'm ENJOYING my new camera a little bit too much. i also have taken a love to felt tips and whiteboards and their markers. haha. :) so i went a bit crazy with them on my piano.
anyways, tired now.
exams tomorrow
toodles
love, hugs + squishy poops.

kat.

you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost..

title: bad day - daniel powter.

i just learnt this song on piano. i really love it! :) and i AM having a bad day, coursework-wise, there's SO much i just CAN'T seem to get on top of it. but i'm trying, with a little boost from my peace of mind. :) aka you guys. :)

so the title totally explains autumn. :) THE LEAVES. i love them hahahha. :) okay, the magic isn't lost thought c'mon, MAGIC is always alive. ;) especially in autumn. i love it. i took a few pictures earlier that you can see on the side over there.. --->
but indeed today has been lovely. :) apart from my coursework failing going on. i have like ALL my geography investigtions STILL. then i have like a week left to do like 4 weeks of art prep and i'm not finished for my ten hour exam, i have maths algebra homework, a draft for history due on monday, a graph to draw up for food and nutrition on A3 and i still have to revise for all my exams next week. lets be honest. school takes the piss. but i guess it's my own fault for going on a work experience week. i just didn't think it would be SUCH hard work. i'm working as hard as i can to get as much done as possible. and these are the first exams i'm REALLY worried about because i've missed so much work, which means revising HARDER which i really don't have the time to do. :(

so there's a few things bringing me happiness.
my mum, and general family.
and my photography. :)

love, hugs + piles of paper.

kat.

now i've found who i am there's no way to hold it in..

title: this is me - miley cyrus (ACOUSTIC)

i know this is the dorkiest song on earth. but it's amazing in acoustic. so there. :)

'' don't compromise yourself, you're all you've got'' - janis joplin.


i was in history the other day, and my teacher was being an absolute prick, lets be honest. i was about to explain myself, and change me story to be reasonable, until i looked up and saw THIS quote on the wall. i thought it was so suitable to my situation, and i continued to stick to me guns about this coursework piece.
which leads me nicely to the point i'm trying to make which is that signs can ALWAYS pop up. just in the completely most random places. i think it's so wierd how guidance can come from such random places.


'' i wish i had just one talent''

this is a postsecret from the new postsecret book that rosie gave me for my birthday. i found it useful as i often feel the same way. it would be so much easier to make decisions if there were one definate route for me in life. although, at the same time, i love the myseteriousness of not knowing, because it makes me feel like i can be anything i want to be. yeah, that's my secret. :) haha.
anyways, i'm tired.
i've decided lately that the word for me is 'stuck'. because that's all i appear to be. just 'stuck'.
stuck in time.
stuck in coursework.
stuck in confusion.
stuck in decisions.
stuck in mind.
stuck stuck stuck. :)
but it's okay, because sticky situations always end with a clean surface. :) and i thrive on those.

i'm gonna go. i need some sleep and thinking time.
oh + also. mum. i love you. :) that is all..

love, hugs + stuck ducks. :)

kat.

happy birthday to youuuu.

title: happy birthday - by ur.. well.. who ACTUALLY knows? in my case, everyone who sung it to me on sunday. :D

it was my birthday, incase you haven't heard me say it around twenty million times on sunday and the days leading up to it, on sunday. :) it was, and i have no doubt in saying this, THE BEST BIRTHDAY I'VE EVER HAD. :) i had such an amazing time, both at home and out for my meal with my frienndsies. :)
the first question anybody asks me when i say it was my birthday is ''oh, happy birthday for then, was it good?'' but since i've already answered that, i've decided to move onto the second. :)
''what did you get?''
well, my friends, what you're about to see is around two hours of bloody editing, a few amazing songs, and some random girl opening all of her presents on her 16th, and, needless to say, loving, EVERY SINGLE ONE. :D:D
enjoy meine petit filious. :)
btw i totally know that my video song just mucked up. :( but just mute at some point if you like. haha. :)



so on with the post. :) at around 7.30 i invited a group of 11 of my closest friends (it was a shame i couldn't have everyone) to a meal at the honeymoon, in barnstaple. you know the chinese restaurant? yeah, that one. :P
anyway, we all managed to have a lovely time, and i wore a dress! which, if you know me, is somewhat of a HUGE feat haha. :) but i was complimented, and i totally enjoyed the evening, i just hope everyone else did too! :) also, with my brand new CAMERA, (thanks mummy!) i'm able to take some pictures. not too many because i forgot to put the memory card in (oops?) but i'll show you my two favourite. (fyi, the rest are on facebook).

yes, the cake does say 'finally legal' on it. hahaha. :) thankyou so much ru, jess, bex + loz. :)

i love you all. :)

anyways, i was going to upload halloween beach pictures too but i really can't be bothered anymore. :) so i'm going to do that asap instead. sorry guys!
i just want to thank everybody that made an effort to contact me, came to my birthday or even sent a text or facebook message. it meant so much to me to have so many people wishing me on my 16th. i love youu guys so much. :)

love, hugs + candle cakes,

kat.

mushaboom mushabooom..

title: mushaboom - feist.

i know what it's time for. do you?

KAT'S BIG FAT DEDICATION BIG LOVE BEST FRIEND BLOG.
yesh, that's what you were thinking, of course it was..

HERE GOES!

btw, i totally know that these are in the worst quality EVER. :) sorry. :( every picture is hand-drawn and has things that remind me of the person around them. :)

okay, so sorry about the quality! i tried. obviously i couldn't do everybody coz it was taking me SO long. :) but i hope you guys like it. :) hahahaaha.
i just can't stress how much you all mean to me. :) thankyou for everything!

love, hugs + blogs with whiteboards,

kat.

oh, btw, I LOVE YOU ALL. :) and even if you weren't mentioned. YOU ARE NOT LOVED ANY LESS. I HAVE LIMITED HAND USE. :)

baby are you down, down, down, down, down?

title: down - jay sean.

i l0ve this song. it's amazing. :)

good morning world, (well, small proportion that read my blog)
i'm listening to feist. i've just bought three albums from itunes with the voucher dad gave me for my birthday. i bought 'daughtry' - chris daughtry's new album, '500 days of summer' - the soundtrack, and 'on a clear night' - missy higgins most recent compilation. i really want newton faulkeners new album too eventually, and a couple films, but i'll have to get a few more vouchers for that. :) i'm gonna try and use limewire less now. i feel artists need proper support and all the album artwork and stuff is already there and correct, and the quality is so so much better!
anyways, the song 'mushaboom' by feist is so amazing and is rapidly becoming my favourite song. :) i'm really annoyed with my ipod though, that they can only sync to one computer, i have to re-download all of my songs. :(
anyways, back to the blog.
guess what?
it's my birthday, in twodays! :) SWEET 16 FTW.
yaaaaay. :) ahh i love birthdays.
i'm so excited.
anyways, for halloween we're gonna do a beach party. but we're only allowed 20 people because apparently else the police will come. which btw, i think is stupid because it's not like we're doing anything stupid. but it's like compulsary. but it's okay coz we're only gonna have like 20 anyways. :]
SO tomorrow is halloween. and in true spirit.. everyone is dressing up. if you want more deetails then text me. :)
it's like.. a matter of moments before i turn sixteen. i still can't get over this. :)

btw, i'm totally supposed to be doing coursework right now and my will power in just gone. but i'm staying in today because i care about my education and i'm definately going to start in a few moments. :)

i'll try and blog on hly's pc tomorrow. :) staying there tomorrow night, i'll give you the full halloween update, hopefully with pictures. if not, you'll get the whole birthday/halloween SHABANG on monday onwards. ;)

stay safe over halloween guys!

love, hugs + pumpkin pie.

kat.

ps. mum, do you still want me to make a pumpkin pie? i'll see if i can find a recipe. :)
pps. so excited about my camera!

with the white keys, you created a symphony, which painted a picture of pure imagery..

title: blossom (meant to be) - kat acott.

omg i wrote a song. proud much. :)

hello guys. it's been a whole week since i've blogged. woah, that's awful for me.
i bought a new hat, wrote a song, completed a week of work experience, got a certificate, planned halloween (in the proccess) bought some roasties, made brownies + cookies, spent ten pounds on ingredients for the above AND stayed at loz's and visa versa, all since last wednesday. oh and not forgetting completing one piece of A3 geography coursework. :)
so a fair bit. littulchina is a busybee lately.
i've also had a fair few train rides. i actually love the train. it's so beautiful on a sunny day. i have a brilliant idea for a video blog soon so you should see that on here once i do it. and i'm getting a camera for my birthday so hopefully that can be used too. (thankyou mummy).
i realised today how much money i actually spend on train tickets. it's so much. i swear, they rob you dry. but they're so damn worth it, it's unreal. so tbh, i'm happy with that. haha.

listening to jason reeves, suprise suprise. really loving his song 'entwined' at the moment. as lauren says, i've become extremely music based lately. my love for both this and fashion has rekindled and i'm glad to say i feel happier than ever lately. i'll be so glad to go back to cool. a fresh year of my life, a fresh new outlook. lovely. :) i'm going to miss you fifteen.
so it's my birthday on sunday. i'm having a meal with my closest friends. admittedly, not all of them, due to the issue of numbers, and a lot of people i'd love to be there just can't attend (kim).
i'm also dead excited for christmas. i can't wait to share it with my family. i'm anticipating the arrival of my baby sister, and everything's very happy happy at the momento.
halloween on saturday night also. the arranging and planning is driving me crazy! gig, beach party, other party, trick or treat, STAY AT HOME? who knows? i'm up for the impulsive decision. i'm just glad i have so many lovely friends to make plans with. :) too happy? i think so.

not a blog of reason, a blog of none, actually. but so worth the thought-spilling madness.
hope to blog again tomorrow. :) meeting alex, need a catch up with her. :)

love, hugs + the pursuit of happyness.

kat.

you're inches from my finger tips, i've come as close as i can get, i'm reaching, but the rest is up to you..

title: reaching - jason reeves.

okay i really wasn't joking about jason reeves. :)

so how are you my little monkey droppings? awesome? i thought so. :)
i just checked my followers and found some girl called cleo. if you read this. HELLO! :) do i know you? haha. :)

so back to today. :) MUM before i forget, we NEED to ring honeymoon about my birthday menu, DON'T FORGET coz i'll forget to ask and i keep forgetting to tell you. :)
ANYWAYS. today we had a presentation about the roles in the criminal justice system. i thought it was really interesting though dull at stages. i also got to see the bunker at the courts. i would never even know there WAS a nuclear bunker there unless someone told me. :) they just use it as a big filing cabinet now. but i was like WOAH. :)

currently listening to chipmunk - oopsy daisy. it's such a typically rnb tune. but it's dope and i love it. :) hahaha.
'girl it's like round and round i go' hahaha, sounds familiar? ;)

so i've just come back to this blog after like half an hour. what a fail.
i'm not sure what's happening so i'm just gonna go for..
SQUISH! :D

that seemed to have created a big fat hole of awkwardness nicely. :) so what is there to report in chinaland? oh yes! it's my birthday in.. okay, i'm not cool enough to count days, NEXT SUNDAY. :) any you know what that means? i've been alive for 16 whole years. :) does that mean i get 16 cupcakes? :D
hahaha. i love the way i have nothing interesting to blog about so i'm spontaneously firing my mindset at you guys. :) but it's okay coz that's how we role in katplanet.
i swear i've just created a universe of planets based on my mind?

okay. so with that LOVELY update. i've got people to call and a work experience leaflet to fill in all before going to sleep.
will try to update daily from today (fingers crossed).

love, hugs + the universe of fallen stars,

kat.

it's not over 'til it's over, sometimes nowhere leads to somewhere..

title: the end - jason reeves.

i love jason reeves. fact.

'it's not over 'til it's over, every ending's a new beginning.
one more chance to get it right, one more chance to get it wrong.'

hello there.

i'm sorry i haven't blogged in so long. i know, i know. what's new right? i've been so busy, and with blogs i totally have to be in the zone. but then i'm just a dork so that's natural. (;
it's my birthday next sunday! i know! sweet sixteen. boy, do i hope so?! :)
i've had my first day of my work experience week at the HMCS today. it was a really good court case in magestrates based on ABH today. :) i can't say much because of confidentiality, but it was awesome nevertheless.
mummy! if you read this call me! i have things to tell you!
anyways. that's taken up the majority of my thinking cap time. :) other than that not much has happened to update you on. me and hly had a cool sleepover last friday. this weekend i plan on finally meeting up with shan again and seeing loz again who, for a best friend, i haven't seen in WAY too long. :( miss you bubs! :)

'but it's such a scary place to be,
everything is inbetween,
i don't know where to go from here.

i was thinking today of meanings. :)
i know, well for me, personally, there's a lot of 'things' whether they be songs, items, words, or even lyrics that remind me of certain things. and i think it's fair to say that's present in everybody. but it's only you that can say what that means. i think you can never really know someone until you know them well. :) i think having these 'things' which for now we'll name 'bonds' with them creates a passage that only you have to a persons heart. and when you have that is when you really know them. :) i'm glad i have such a widespread family, both relations and my family of friends. :) my stars, fallen down. :)
it's quarter to 12. i need to be at my work experience by 9.15am tomorrow morning. oh no. better sleep.

'it all starts again,
in the end'.

111th post. now officially squishied.
love, hugs + sleepydreamers,
kat.

no doublin' back, doublin' back now..

title: no doubling back - jason mraz.

i love this song. it's so beautiful. heard it about two minutes ago. it's on spotify, have a listen.

family.

a topic of great importance. right?

i was flicking through an old album. these are the best moments of my family as i remember them. i wanted to share them before they fade. it made me sit in great awe at the invention of photography because without it memories would fade a lot quicker. although i'm never going to have my family like this again, and don't get me wrong, i love my family now, i just like to cherish those memories from when i was a little china. :)

the pictures are really bad focus. but we didn't have the best camera, and i took these from my phone. :)

oh c'mon mum, we were the coolest, you know it's true. :) i've never known such an amazing family.

chris. you don't even read my blogs. hahhaa. but you were my rock, when no one else was, even when you didn't realise it. :) thankyou.

mummy. you're my constant. okay, so this picture ONLY shows my interest in fish. :) but you're the person that's ALWAYS ALWAYS been there, even when everybody left just me and you. haha. :) i love you mum.

dad - my stupid laptop just froze on the pictures and won't let me upload anymore. :( but i love you. i miss the times when everything was so uncomplicated. i hope i don't lose you. well not forever atleast. thankyou for everything. i love you.

there's been loads of quotes on 'family' or atleast what people percieve that word to be. to me family is what you make of it. i know people closer than ever to their closest relatives, and i also know people who couldn't be further away. each with their own reason, family is something that changes everybody's life.

me? i love all of my family, as big as it has now grown to be. but i won't ever forget the times when it was just the 'fantastic' four. i miss those days, and i won't deny that. but i love every member of my family lots + lots.

i wanted to end the blog with a quote. i thought about the most family orientated person i could. and who else could it have been? this isn't a quote on family, but what many people think is the bond that seals a family - love.

let us dream of tomorrow where we can truely love from the soul, and know love as the ultimate truth at the heart of all creation. - michael jackson.

rest in peace michael jackson. :)

love, hugs + stars, falling down.

kat.

p.s. everybody has bad days, weeks, moments, minutes. but they're always followed by good moments. and without the bad where would we be? as long as you have the right people pulling you through, anything is possible. even the highest of walls, the trickiest of assault courses + the hardest obstacles. kim, i hope you're okay. :) i love you cuz. :)

p.p.s. thankyou. to all my friends and family, who make my blogs worth writing, and who i dedicate every single one to. :)

and my head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away and i'm just waiting for the droplets, the droplets..

title: droplets - colbie caillat + jason reeves.

ohmygod. this song is amazing. i'm not even joking. + i've fully developed a love for jason reeves. he's got such an awesome voice. win all round methinks. :)

okay, i'm sorry i'm blogging so infrequently, i've been ill and haven't had the energy, but i'm back! i've decided i'm going to delete my tumblr because i don't really like it and then i can blog more on here. :)
yesterday i spent two hours of my day running around with charlie while paul was mowing the lawn. then we lied under the tree. :) it was fun. i love charlie. he's cute. he thinks he's so big, when he's so damn little.

there he is. :) unfortunately the pictures were only taken on my phone, which is WHY i can't wait 'til my birthday to get my camera. :) which will probably have a lot better quality *big grin*. anyways. i was watching x factor last night and decided i don't like dani anymore. bitch. :)also. i looove ollie murs. :) i never realised how much until last night. AND lucy daniels, jamie archer + rachael aderdiji or whatever. but does anyone else think that lloyd daniels is waaaay cute? :)

i'ma go. watching priviliged.

love, hugs + rainfall,

kat.

tumblr i hear you say?

hello everyone :)
guess what?!
i made a tumblr account! :o
okay, so i don't REALLY understand it yet, and i don't think i'm going to move my blog there permanently.. but i MAY do.
for now, it's just a second blog! so if i haven't posted here then check there, it's a LOT better and i can upload videos too. there'll be a lot more posts too, more than a certain amount per week, more like a couple a day! :D

www.starsfallingdown.tumblr.com

check it out. :) i need verdicts so hit me up too.

love, hugs + new beginnings.

kat.

shnufflemonsters.

title: the first thing that just came into my head. weird but beautiful people, weird but beautiful..

hallo!
okay, TWO main points to express to you my gorgeous piles of readers. okay maybe not piles? handfuls? WHATEVER, anyways.. brace yourself.
I HAVE SWINE FLU. :o
yes, i know what you're thinking, typical kat. you're suprised that you're NOT suprised right? me too tbh, i was like great, trust me, of ALL people. silly china. :P
anyways, not gonna go into depressing detail about that, basically i feel disgusting and typically very poorly, but i'm not the only one and i'm sure you all know someone who has had or has the virus so it's okay. :)
main point number two i hear you cry?!
I GOT INTO THE MAJESTRATES COURT LAW WORK EXPERIENCE WEEK THINGY! :D:D
okay, i'm not sure that anyone just understood that. but i applied for it and only four people get the placement out of north devon students and i got accepted WOO! :) work paid off :).

apart from that not much to report. i'm on my old laptop as my new one DIED epically.
i'm not allowed in school so i have nothing to do tomorrow, and i'm gonna go coz i feel sick haha. :)

but that's the hoedown throwdown on my situation.
hope you guys have a cool weekend + stuff like that.

love, hugs + tamiflu. :)

kat.

you're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no..

title: katy perry - hot n cold.

the title is merely how i'm feeling at the moment. maybe not as upbeat as the rhythm suggests, but certainly reflecting off the lyrics.
so here's the deal.
i've been 'ill' for like three months now on and off, and i've not missed one day of school for it because it's never got that bad really. but then last night it suddenly all caught up with me. i feel like.. SHIT.
i'm not sure what it is. i have the poundiest headache in the world, the rawest throat EVER and i'm all dizzy, let alone the amount of phlegm i'm coughing up. :( (sorry for the minor details).
so under mummy's order, i had to skip school today. which i don't think i really could have faced anyways. but you know.
i'ma DEFINATELY be in tomorrow. okay so maybe not definately because right now i feel like i've eaten a horse and THEN puked it up along with all of my internal organs. but i'ma trrry! because i have a history essaaay AND today i'm missing food. :( damn illness.
as it happens, there's like more than HALF of the school ill i SWEAR it. has anyone else noticed that? i don't know what it is but i hope it goes soon coz i don't like being ill. :(

other than that rant about how ill i am (not THAT ill honest. :)) there is other news.
so despite feeling VERY sick, it was really nice to be able to go out for dinner and a movie with mummy last night. ( i really missed you mom! ) we went to prezzo for pizza (but i had salad coz i wasn't feeling so good) and it was YUM. then we went to see 'fame' which was also in my opinion REALLY good. but mum said the original was tonnes better. so i'll have to watch that when i can. :)

btw, i know i haven't blogged in like a week. this is because i've been SO busy with coursework it's hard to even find the time. and the annoying thing about missing school today is that i'ma have to catch up on ALL of that work too. along with somehow trying to go to the A*-C grade college meeting tomorrow as i'm missing it today. *sigh* i hate being off school. it's annoying.

okay. i'm starting to feel pretty ill again. typically. i need to sleep or something.
hopefully see everybody tomorrow. :(

love, hugs + optimism,

kat.

what about now? what about today?

title: what about now? - chris daughtry.

this title made me think. what about now? i mean, people speak so much about their future when a lot of us are taking forgranted what we have right now. what is already special to us. we need to cherish that sometimes, because you never know when everything can flip 180.

i woke up this morning extra early so i could grab breakfast before school. and i flicked on the news.
all that appeared to be the main stories were just devestation. tsunami? earthquakes? i mean, if i were in the philippines now i couldn't imagine the pain i would be going through. i always thought of these places as like.. foreign and nothing to do with me. little did i make the connection that there are people OUR age, JUST like me out there. i mean, yeah, it's VERY unlikely that a random tsunami is gonna hit devon tomorrow. even england is a definate no. but think about it. that morning those teens were going out to school. JUST like me this morning. although theirs didn't involve watching the devestation. it involved living it.

to donate to the philippines and to help them build a better life for themselves after this tragedy then you can go online. at http://unicef.payeasy.ph/
i think i'm going to donate if i have any left over money this month. if not to this then to SOME charity. i always donate my spare change to charity boxes now. i think every little thing can make a difference to someone's life. i've also been trying to do more for other people lately. :) as good deeds means good karma. :)
i wish the philippines the BEST of love. :) they deserve their lives back quick as. if you guys care about their devestation. don't sit back and thank your lucky stars it isn't you. because one day, it just could be.

love hugs, + devestation.

kat.

come on paint me a rainbow, so i can follow it. i don't know where it'll take me, but i like wonderin'..

title: rainbow - colbie caillat.

i looove colbie caillat at the moment. again. she's so amazing and makes awesome study music. which by the way, is what my life has been consisting of the past couple of days. now some of you may think this sucks. but it's actually okay, especially since today was pretty relaxing and yesterday was spent working with my best friend. all is well it acottland. :)

so it's sunday, and do you know what that means? POSTSECRET. :)

the good thing is, i know i said i dind't like last weeks and i reckon that postsecret were SAVING the amazing ones for this week, as i love them all and can't pick my favourite. so i narrowed it down to my favourite TWO and if you want to see the rest you have to visit; www.postsecret.blogspot.com.

okay so this made me think loads. it's not the most lovely of secrets. but it's one the women needed to expose. it made me really realise how much the economy does affect families. i know that only the little things like changing the brand of something we buy may be all the change that we as individuals make, but for others they aren't so lucky. this women is fighting the only way she knows she can. and although in a horrible way, she has her reasons. it made me realise how lucky i am to have a family that hasn't been hit this hard over our countries current economic society. :)

okay, on a lighter note. this is the most adorable postsecret i have ever read. i love the determination of the person. hey, wouldn't everyone want a guy like this? :) it's so adorable. it's the way people are willing to risk everything and anything in a last minute hope to get what they want. i think you can apply this to almost anything. it needn't be love or money. :)

on with the rest of the blog.

don't you just hate decisions? i hate having to make them lately. it's so energy draining i swear. :)

on the work front, i've got 4 pages of maths, 3 of history, 2 A3 sheets of food, half an english essay + a german future tense sheet completed for this week. you see normally? that would make me ecstatic. but i still have an art homework, a geography courseowork question + not to mention what will be set THIS week to complete. i regret when i said ''i barely get any coursework'' as it appears that backfired on me.

as for the 'her majesties court service' work placement. i've decided i probably haven't got in due to the lack of letter from them i have recieved. if there isn't one by the end of this week i'm gonna take it as i haven't. damn it. :(

annnyyways some of you may have noticed some kid called 'eric' has commented on my previous post asking if i'll do some advertising for him. i checked it all out and decided 60 quid is rubbish money for making my blog into some random up advertising campaign and i'm therefore not going to accept his offer. so don't keep reminding me. oh + i don't wanna give mybank details to a stranger. but it's fine. it was awesome to have the offer. even if just by chance. :)

gonna leave you guys with a quote from dustin. this dude on my twitter who i'm following that is suffering from severe heart problems + has a very short life expectancy. he comes out with the best art (music, art and writing-wise) and the most inspirational quotes.

'stress in life comes from making things more important than they really are. failure comes from making those things less important.' - dustin kessler.

love, hugs + indefinate confusion,

>.<

kat.

this is not the way that it should end, it's the way it should begin..

title: begin again - colbie caillat.
because everybody has the right to begin again. or maybe even just look at life in a different way. it's all about perspective. maybe judgemental people are those blind to real treasures.

the definition of 'admire' on the internet is as follows:
admire - to regard with pleasure + wonder.
i can think of so many people that come under this category.

today i've been a real grump about everything. feeling down because everything was getting too much. but after having a conversation with one of my very close friends, it's given me a new perspective on things. my admiration for bravery has grown + i think i'm going to cherish life so much more. when looking at people you never become aware to what they might be feeling, why they might act the way they do. not attitude issues or behaviour problems. i think there's a lot more to a person than a diagnosis. i think i'm going to judge people a lot less now. for sure.

the definition of 'perspective' on the internet is:
a way of regarding situations or topics.
:) i like that. we should regard them in many perspectives though, not just one.

other than all of this, i think i've learnt more about myself in one evening than i have in a long time tonight. it's strange, the human mind. but so's life. even with it's ups and downs, you have to admit. it's bloody brilliant.

the definition of 'happiness'?
enjoying or showing joy or pleasure.
i don't like this one. you can't define happiness. you just have to think of that time that you were genuinly on top of the world. you got it yet? no? think harder.
how about now?
yeah, you see that? THAT is happiness.

sleep well squishies.

love, hugs + new perspectives,
your friend, foe + observant chilli fry,

kat.

we're just ordinary people.

title: ordinary people - john legend.

the title is basically just because we are ordinary people. simple as. nothing more, nothing less. i mean, they say we're all equal. that's rubbish, we're not. but i believe there's no need to be different when we're beautiful as we are. just ordinary people..

so today i was thinking about determination. it all came about with the smallest thing. i was walking to the bus station after school. and i knew if i didn't walk very fast then i would miss my bus. and i was walking so fast and was so focused on getting there, that i was completely oblivious to the fact that it was raining; and i mean really raining. i was so suprised! i was like 'omg!' i never even noticed the rain. it's the smallest example ever but it's strange that maybe being oblivious to things can sometimes be a good thing? because it makes us aware to only our goals, and that we will go through and past every wrong turn, just following that one straight road to success, without even noticing the people who refuse to believe. just made me think. what are you gonna let stand in your way? what/who would you fight for?

i love dreaming..

today i didn't do much. just a usual day of school. i was very tired. i seem to be getting even more tired in school days lately. i think cups of tea and bus naps are keeping me awake at the moment. going to try and get earlier nights. but that's hard with as many things to do in the evenings. i'm very much looking forward to this friday + saturday. it'll be great to be at the beach with all of my best friends. finally all of us having a great weekend together, and a rest at that. :)

i like blogging..

can i just take this moment to send love to everyone that supports me everyday of my life. i swear i don't say it enough. blog readers, best friends, family, squishes. thanks.

i love music..

i was also thinking. i have a french dictionary + a german dictionary, but i don't even have an english one? i think that i really need to focus on learning more about my own languages as well as exploring others. it made me think about people. i mean we always judge people before sorting our own lives out. it's funny right? i mean c'mon, when was the last time you judged someone on something you know you are guilty for? ha. life is hilarious.

i love life..

i'm going to go and relax, be happy + listen to music.
thank you for reading. you lovely bunch of happy.
love, hugs + dictionaries.
because people to me are undefinable.

kat.

i want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road, someone's got to go..

title: already gone - kelly clarkson.

i love the title song. i totally forgot it even existed until my cousin sent it to me this evening. re kindled love for it. thanks kim. :)
anyways. i've had a VERY stressful day. due to the fact that i found out about the law work experience week TODAY. and guess when the deadline for application was? TODAY! but i want a place SO bad. so i insisted on getting the information from ms thomas, and then i spent my WHOLE lunchtime writing up my CV and my letter of application. then i had to RUN up 8 floors of the civic centre after school, to the magestrates' court's office and handed it ALL in ten minutes before the deadline. even THEN the guy said the women i needed wasn't in anymore. but i was like ''BUT THE DEADLINE IS TODAY?!'' and he goes ''don't worry, i'll timestamp it for you''. so i was like SO thankful to that guy. hopefully 'Ms S Gilbert' realises how much i want this. i wish it was an interview so i could REALLY show her. the chances of me getting into the week of courtship is VERY unlikely, as it's ALL of the school in north devon, and they are only picking four students. but i knew if i didn't apply then i would only be kicking myself for never knowing. so i'm glad i have, even if i don't get a place. :)
ANYWAYS. other than that stressful section of my day, i've done like.. nothing. haha. well i played with charlie, and he's all worn out now. i also watched the sun going down, and ate a couple frubes. but other than that, i think i should get started on my COURSEWORK. which i have realised i DO have. and then i need to eat my dinner + tell my mum the law story. everyone keep your fingers crossed for me, coz lets be honest, i'm shitting myself. :P
tomorrow brings triple science. nicht gut. alright with the group i have though. (:
i'm so tired..
and by the looks of charlie? i'm not the only one.. love, hugs and tartan blankies.

oh + good luck wishes. :)

kat.

happy at you.

title: my own ponderings..

okay, so here's the thing..
i was brushing my teeth this morning and was pondering over random words. i was thinking.. what rule is there that means that you have to be happy with someone? or.. dissapointed in someone? how about angry at someone. i think it's funny how they always have their own individual words. so i decided that today i was gonna be happy at someone. not with them. :) maybe tomorrow i'ma be angry in you? :S :D afterall who says you can't mix up the english language. it's all about your own style, right? ;)

in other news.. guess what?!

it's my hundredth post today!

i wasn't ENTIRELY sure about what to do, as i don't really have amazing ideas.. :P
but! i thought, what a better way to celebrate 100 posts of love, than with the people who make me WANT to blog. my best friends, and best family. :) so here goes, a list of ABSOLUTELY EVERYBODY i can think of that has inspired me in my thoughts, maybe not in my WHOLE life, but certainly in the last few months to a year. :) and some with just how they've done it. ;)
here goes;

mum (being my absolute rock, always) dad (for never giving up) chris (for being there, always) paul (because new family is just as good as old) matthew + amy (coz kids can teach you more about yourself than YOU sometimes) kim (thankyou for ALWAYS being there)

+ the friends..

lauren (my ALL time best friend in the world. i love you) maddy (my inspiration) nickie (my admiration) hly (my thought provoker) bex (my long time BEST friend) heidi (my sister) jess rumer sadie (that night :D thankyou) hannah char lucy shan emma joe kirsten laura ria (thankyou) stevie (seeing the world in a different point of view :D) betty izzy ash amy immy kirsten kerrie katy (job finder much? HA) jade rosie rosie emily emily martina stroudy tom tim ross bry (thankyou) rachael bellis rachael broome *jeni jen hollie alex sophie cecylia georgie amy* ( for teaching me more about myself than ever) matt sam d aaron josh ryan m mollie nicole chris tom jack alice ben will george izzy d tom c.

okay there's probably a ZILLION more. but i forget SO easily coz i'm AWFUL. and i can guarantee you i've actually missed somebody the CLOSEST to me. coz i'm THAT awful. but it's fine because you'll learn to forgive me. :)
i know a LOT of those people i've probably only had contact with BRIEFLY but a lot of them made me THINK more than they know, so that's why. it's all personal so don't ask me 'omg why is ........ on there?' because they've personally made a difference to my life, that's why.

anyways. that's my dedication. if your name is on there, and even if it ISN'T but you know you mean the world to me, then THANKYOU for being there, and making a difference in my life, ultimately making THIS blog real for me.
also music had been a MASSIVE part of it, so if i could thank the INVENTOR of music then i would ;)
oh + teachers. i know it's really wierd, but they have a huge impact on what i do, so thanks. :) BWAHAA. :)

anyways. on to my regular part of the blog.. (btw, i know this is really long) :P
okay, so i just went on postsecret and none of the secrets actually stood out to me this week, so i'm not going to blog any until next week. :) sorry! :(
ALSO. i'm looking forward to this weekend, sleepover with loz, DOUBLE TIME :) can't wait. should probably ask mum about that actually. :)

i'm currently listening to priscilla ahn, who hannah showed me. she's an amazing singer. :) i'm glad i have spotify tbh. i need to start a conversation with maddy in a minute too. i feel deprived.

ANYWAYS, just been eating grapefruit, playing with charlie, watching x factor etc today, never made the boiled egg in the end, had scrambled instead. ;)

okay, gonna dash. :)
love, hugs + one hundred POSTS.

thanks + squishes..
kat.

you make it easy, as easy as one, two.. one, two, three, four..

title: 1, 2, 3, 4 - plain white t's.

my title is a VERY good song. one of which i love greatly because it makes me happy. AND i just learnt it on piano so smiles all around i think. :)

i didn't do much today, in fact i had planned to have a weekend just in the house because i'm always out. so that's what i have done. and tomorrow i plan on making myself a boiled egg as late breakfast, playing with the puppy and learning something new on piano. i shall then check sunday secrets on postsecret - followed by blogging them, on what will be my 100th post. wowza. very excited. >.<
must think of something special to do. if you have anything then feel free to post your ideas. i already have a few. ;)

so today, after a WHOLE day at home, i spontaneously decided - or rather was convinced, by nickie, to go to the carnival. :) so i did. it was okay, nothing AMAZING, but it was nice to see everyone, and GET OUT. and i got a chicken burger and my bestfriends won so YAY! :D

other than that, not much happenning. i got a train at like 9pm all by myself today though. i was proud of myself. :)

i'm gonna go. tired. :) i'm excited about my lie in tomorrow.

love, yawns + carnival balloons,

kat.

i do it for love.

title: bottle it up - sara bareilles.

i love this song, such a feel good song. but at the same time it's lyrics are awesome.
i've also been repeatedly listening to the forrest gump tune. it's amazing. i know i've already said it, but the notes speak a thousand words. trust me. alan silvestri. god bless you. :)

so today is all about thoughts + thinkables. it's also about motivation, inspiration + admiration. words that in the past few days, i'd never assigned a real definition to.
so lets begin at the start. because lets be honest, that's always the best place..
i think more than ever, people have been thinking very hard about their lives. analysing themselves and questioning who they really are. it's all too easy to be who you want to be, certainly easier than finding who you are. i think this final year is about self discovery. i'm so excited to see who i become; who i am, and to do it with all of my favourite people is a bonus.
motivation is something i didn't think could be defined in a deeper way than just being told ''you can do it'' or just a simple pat on the back. it's funny how music, lyrics or otherwise can say so much more than anyone else could.
my inspiration has come so very much closer to home. my best friends. my mummy, and this time? my daddy too. you've all made me inspired to BE something. to make something of myself. and everyday i am inspired to do something new, somehing different. like this blog for example. :)
and finally, admiration. there's been a lot of personal issues around lately. testing everyone to their personal core and pushing them past their threshold. i admire the way certain people have been able to pull through their crap, and still have time to support others. :)

anyways, that's my awesome hardcore blog for today.
i love you dad.
i love you friends.
i LOVE you mum. (always).

tell me, who is YOUR inspiration?

love, hugs, thoughts + thinkables.
just do it for love.

kat.

tell me, did you sail across the sun? did you make it to the milky way..

title: drops of jupiter - train.
i love love LOVE the title of this song. :) a drop of jupiter is such a beautiful image. i wish i could have one.

so i've spent my evening on call to maddy :) who i have missed HUGELY over the last few months, and am proud to call my lovely friend. :) thanks for everything baby. :)
i've also just listened to the forrest gump soundtrack, if you haven't already heard it it is VERY VERY good; a must hear piano piece.
i also learnt hallelujah on piano and did a bit of jammin' with mads bwaha. :)
so an all 'round extremely enjoyable evening.

anyways, on with the show (blog :S) haha.
i've been feeling VERY confused in terms of friendship and group changes at school lately. i swear to god everything and everyone either pisses me off or confuses me. tbh, i'm blaming either hormones or growth spurts, coz i'm telling you, this ain't natural ;).
but yeah, it's not all happy happy at school atm. loving lesson time a million times more than any lunch or break-time. year eleven friendships are harder challenges than i first percieved them to be.
anyways, on the subject of music, if you haven't yet heard michael buble's new song 'haven't met you yet' then you MUST listen. i assume any person who regularly listens to the radio has heard it. :)
which nicely rolls me towards my departure. i'ma leave you with a GORGEOUS set of lyrics by kinagrannis, who has just recorded a previous song acousticly on youtube. it's BEAUTIFUL and i love it.
the lyrics are as follows;

i think that the stars would have waited for us
hanging on to the night, watching down below
until we were hand in hand, together waiting for them
and when i open my eyes i saw it too
stars falling down, when i fell for you.

i love you, i love you. i do.

i think that the clouds like the laughter between us
wanting to feel the warmth they're softly sinking down
until the cover the streets just like a dreamland
and right above us they part so that i see through
stars falling down, and i fell for you.

i love you, i love you. i do.

:) if you read them properly, they're gorgeous.
i'll link you..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PAIsGdJoqp0

if you have any sense you'll watch and subscribe. support growing youtube artists. ;)
:D

lots of puppy love, frubes + popsicles.
a very confused, happy, and content;

kat.

You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow, this opportunity comes once in a lifetime..

title - lose yourself - eminem.
i like the title song. it kind of fits what's going on for everyone in my year right now. i could swear we've had over 3 assembilies just explaining to us the importance we do well in our exams etc. it's stupid, don't they realise we already know? i know this opportunity has come to do amazingly, and i'ma seize it with both hands. :)
so today we got a new PUPPY! charlie. i love him, lots + lots. haha. he's very very cute. well.. i'll let you see for yourself shall i?

i love you charlie! hahhaa. :) he's asleep at the moment, coz he got tired from all the playing. but it's okay. :)

other than that not much has happened. loz stayed round last night, but that's nothing new. ;) it always happens. :) haha. we watched mean girls, or rather i watched it and made her watch it with me. and we ran out of ice cream so i nicked amy and matthew's munch bunch as revenge. MUAHAHA. :)

OMG i completely forgot aswell! YESTERDAY we went to the beach! it was SOOO GOOD. like.. 15 year 11's, all at the beach. was SO fun! :)

pictures?!

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=154338&id=614315490&ref=nf

they're ALL on there. taken mainly by nickie and hly on hly's camera. :)

much love guys. :)

i also found this picture on my phone when i was uploading charlie pictures earlier, i kinda i like it! love you girls! :)

okay well that was a very picture-full blog. and i am now content that you stalkers are fulfilled. bwahaha jokes. ;)

i'll leave you guys with more eminem, coz i know that you all need some motivation atm. ;)

''Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunityTo seize everything you ever wanted-One momentWould you capture it or just let it slip?''- eminem.

right, gotta dash.

think about it. ;)

much love and puppies. :)

kat.

you can't see past the worst case scenario..

title: worst case scenario - the hoosiers.

okay, so i know this band was voted like worst band ever or something. which tbh is pretty harsh, but kinda true haha! anyways so i liked the song. not so much the band. but they're ALRIGHT.

anyways i've just come back to this blog after two hours haha. of watching derren brown and screaming at his unbelievable intelligence. i tell you my eyes were completely transfixed. although, what scared me the most was that um, next week he's showing a short film to the nation through our tv screens to try and make us STICK TO OUOR SEATS. apparently once you're done watching you wont be able to get off from your sofa. which to me is a sdcary prospect, but one i cannot pass up. :P

besides all of that, i know i haven't blogged since tuesday, and i'm sorry for that but i've been busy.. forgetting to blog. :) hahaha.
tomorrow i'm going to the beach. i've gotta get a bus that gets to barnstaple at 12.15, and the bus to saunton leaves at 12.20. so hopefully i'll get there in time to catch it, if not i guess i'll have to get one up by myself. :P
OH WELL!
also, going to dinner with dad on tuesday.

CANNOT BE BOTHERED TO WRITE ANYMORE. sorry guys, got fanta to drink ad magic to watch..

lotsa love and bubbles.
kat.

the sun is shining, it's a brand new day..

title: joshua radin - brand new day.
i was on the bus today, wallowing in my own sorrow, as you do. haha, when this song came on. it's such an optimistic song and i love it. so that's why it's there today. coz today IS a brand new day. :)
i remember there was lots i wanted to blog about, but i can't really remember what.
i found the album my dad gave to my mum as a fourty-eth birthday present. i was looking through the pictures of my mummy as a child and me as a child and they are AWFULLY similar! :) my mummy was cute as a baby, i think that's where i get it? ;) hahahhaa, jokie pokie.

so anyways, i'll try and upload some of said pictures when i can. :P in the meantime, i didn't do my postsecret favourites this week! it's VERY good this week, you guys should check it out if you haven't already. http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com/.


my favourite was this one this week. :)

it makes me smile because lots of people always go on about how the regret this that or the other. but to hear someone say that they do not regret EVEN the bad things, all because it led them to where/who they wanted to be or have. i think it's beautiful, and reading this made my day. i hope it made yours too. :)

i didn't do much today. i'm enjoying being back at school, i've just written up a whole new original writing for english in a hope to get a higher grade as my previous one was AWFUL. i think i've done pretty well. :) I also got my science grades today, a B + an A*. I was very happy with that. :) I also LOVE LOVE my science group. I MISSED YOU GUYS! :) got food tomorrow, with science, english + maths, not a bad day, i'm EXCITED. :)

gonna go continue watching jamie oliver now. i'm pretty hungry too. mum's not home and i can't be bothered to move yet though. meh, i'll just look at food instead.

lots of love and squishy gloop.

kat.

you got a dream... you gotta protect it. people can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it..

the title is a quote from my favourite movie, 'the pursuit of happyness'. i'm not sure how it became my favourite film, it just has been for quite a while now. i love this quote because it's so damn true. i've never had someone tell me i can't do something, but i know that if anyone ever tried telling me i couldn't do what i aspire to, i wouldn't listen, 'coz dreams are there to make reality. otherwise you would never have dreamt them up in the first place, right?

so hello dear readers. my today has been, in one word, excellent. :) i've spent lots of time doing coursework, but it was so fun! okay, not so much the coursework, but instead of doing it in my room i did it with my mummy and step dad in the living room with me! and we had such a blast it was hilarious. oh, and with lauren on call of course. ;)
nothing else has really happened, well actually, big progress has been made in some areas, things have changed, and secrets have been exposed, but all in all, it's been a brilliant sunday. :) and i didn't even have to leave the house!

bloooopie.

wow, that was random. BAHA! omg, that just got typed without me thinking. i'm gonna leave it there now. moohahaha! :)
anyways, i'm bored, gonna continue talking to my friendies on msn. is it me or has msn got better lately?

oh, thought of the day for you guys..
WHY ARE THERE SO MANY WASPS?! I hate them :(

lots of hugs and wasp juice. :)

kat.

life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breathe away..

the title is a quote from 'hitch', a film i watched for like the fifth time today. i loved this quote, and thought i had to write it somewhere as soon as i heard it. here is somewhere.

so today hasn't really been the best day of life ever. i was extremely looking forward to meeting bry, but i'm very ill, and i couldn't do another minute in town, so mum took me home and i couldn't meet him. i feel really bad that i couldn't because i was so excited and i haven't seen him in a WEEK. :( sorry brys.

other than that, i've just been sleeping, getting ear drops + eating soup from boston with mum in a last attempt to boost my health. baha. i'm determined not to miss any days off school this year either so i have to be better by monday. :)
anyways, i have been obvserving people a lot lately (i know, what's new right?) and i've become really fascinated by how different people act around others etc. how people have different opinions but both with valid points, things like that. i guess i never realised that even i can still suprise myself with what i say/do. i mean, i can do or say something and then ten minutes later sit there like 'why did i do that?' haha. it's beautiful, the human mind, truely.
do you ever suprise yourself? i know i do. i guess you never really know how your actions can affect and mould other people's lives and thoughts. like that quote 'one mans rubbish is anothers treasure' or something. people never realise how the 'crap' they spill out of their mouths may have an effect on others. how a sentence, that's honest, can be someone's guide to life, and a quote can take them through the toughest times.
sometimes it's just nice to sit and think. when will your actions affect people? will they change someones life?

kat.

the good thing about having a paper jam is that it forces you to open the machine and find out what went wrong in the first place..

just so i was watching one tree hill a couple minutes ago (because i was at loz's house last night, and so i missed it for the gig) and a guy said this quote, (see title). i never really listened to quotes from tv shows much, but i thought it was very true, so i decided i'd just blog it. :)

a minute ago i was reading people's blogs while going on my daily scout to see if people had updated, and i realised how different everyone's blogs actually are. i think it's so cool how everyone writes completely differently and in their own style, about entirely different subjects.
i guess it's pretty funny how there are all these set 'rules' and 'writing styles', yet when it comes to the nitty gritty (i love that phrase) people write as, when and what they like. things like this that i (over) observe make me schmile. :)

anyways, there's not much else to comment on today. i've been into town with loz + bex and bought some things that i actually needed for once, rather than aimlessly buying crapppers. :)
i bought..
- a new coat for school..
- a new set of headphones (which btw i just ruined by sticking ear drops in and they've gone all yellow..oops. *very angry*)
- jammy bottoms for bed.
- white hockey socks for school.
and i need some new trainers. MUM I LOVE YOU! :D?
but yes, was a very successful day with my girls, and we've recently been reminiscing and afterwards talking about what this year brings. to be honest, i do not think any of us are quite sure, but me? i think that everything's going to change, but i just can't WAIT to find out how and if it'll be a good or bad change, all i know is i'm excited (topped off with a little scared that is).
tomorrow i'm going to do my food coursework, print off some final peices, prepare my things for school, text my bry and do some optional coursework for art. (half of which won't happen). then i'm gonna run to spar, grab a tub of ben and jerry's and watch ''eternal sunshine of the spotless mind' which i still slightly don't understand yet. :)

but for now, i gotta pee, finish my pear cider and take my 600 winks. ;) haha.
lots of love shugga muffins. :)
kat.