raise it up.

title: rabbit heart - florence and the machine.

hi there everyone. sorry i haven't blogged in so long, i've taken a lust for tumblr at the moment so blogging here has been scarce. :-) also, i'm on my computer a lot less, so that's why. not that many people read this really, but oh well.

so right now i'm sitting on my bed in pitch black with just my ipod on full blast in my ears. bit of death cab for cutie is anyones guilty pleasure.
'what's the time?' i hear you say. 4.15pm. not too late, but dark nevertheless.
the early darkness starts to make me more tired. infact, i wish it was summer, things were so much brighter then. :-)

christmas!

i didn't do too much. was woken at around 7 to open freaking presents, of which i recieved two. (N). but that okay, as i also got a stocking and a wad of cash which suits me nicely. although it was more than the presents. it was just nice to have everyone happy for a while. :-)

brother came home too. it was nice for the first couple of days, but i guess you can OVERstay sometimes. i mean, i love him lots, but he is now 'bored' of me, and so i can do little but to hate him back until he comes 'round.

ahhh.. the fray. how lovely. :-)
hahaha my ipod is on shuffle.

it's funny because there's barely anyone who's actually gonna read this. but i kinda like the outlet and to talk to myself is a bit. weird.

so why not be brutally honest, lets pretend NO ONE will read this, eh?

hello diary,

i'm worried lately, because it seems many of my friends have changed their opinions of me. whether it be being completely off with me (undoubtedly fair enough as i accused them of being bisexual), or just changing their opinion of the way i am. it's just annoying. i think 2010 is going to be my year of not as much caring. i mean i love ALL of my friends, but that's all i ever do. and it still seems that some where along the line i'm fucking up. whether i'm bein too 'selfish' because i can't just be friends with everyone or i'm just a pure 'bitch'. i think i'm going to start being my COMPLETE self, not changing to peoples ideal version of me, and just being myself with EVERYONE, if they don't like that, then that's their problem, right? :-) i can't be who you want me to be, as much as i love ya. they say it's all about change and adaptation, so why not try staying put, and just being yourself. :)

jason mraz. i love you. :D haha. - shuffle, again. ;)

ah. merry christmas world.
i'm bored now.
this was fun!
i hope no one reads this, it's SO WEIRD. sorry! :P

love, hugs + mr. a-z.

kat.