all of your life you've gone your own way, so give me this chance, and i'll go mine..

title: proud - matthew thomas

i haven't blogged in a while. and i don't expect many to still be checking whether i have. which i sprobably why i've chosen to blog here and not my tumblr.

i'm sick.
i don't know why, and i don't know what it is. but it won't go away, and for that i hate my body at the moment. :(
i wish it would go away. it's so annoying.

i guess there are times in your life where you wish you knew, what the heck was going on i mean. but you just don't. this is one of those times.
then there's those times where you wonde rwhat the heck you've done to deserve it. this is one of those times too.
and then, there's those times when you realise who is really there, and who offers their support, but really gives nothing.
there are the times when you have to fight. because walking away doesn't prove fast enough, and running means retracing tracks. so when forward is the only direction, and there's a giant barrier in the way, do you turn around and walk backwards, or do you break the barrier no matter how long and how hard it is?

in other news. happy birthday daddy. :) i love you. you've always shown me the light, even when your own began to dim. i'm glad to call myself your daughter, even after everything we've been through.

love hugs + barriers that are years old,

kat.