blogging.

29th january 2010.

today i became iller, captained a hockey team, won a hockey match, lost 3 hockey matches, let my best friend down, took a posh train, cried, laughed, smiled, realised my mum is the best person on my planet, realised i really miss my family, realised who my true friends are, decided to stop being horrible about everyone because they're all amazing people, and played guitar.

today was an average day.

right now i am writing a song. i don't know what the lyrics or the music is yet. because i'm not writing it down. (so not really writing a song tbh)

i'm happy. :) i think. i mean, yeah, i'm starting to think that i'm drifting from my closest friends, i'm a let down and an all round 'gets everything wrong all the time' person, but i'm happy. :)

i really like trains. :)
i decided this on the way home. the reason being when i'm on a train i feel like i'm floating. because i can't see the track and when the windows are really clean i put my head against the glass and it feels like i am just drifting through the trees. i also like trains because they feel like you're seeing life from the inside, not the outside. like instead of taking the windy roads you just dart straight through the middle but you aren't allowed to see where it takes you because before you know it you have to get off. like they're telling you that shortcuts never lead anywhere and you may see something for a moment, but you will have to take the long road to be able to make anything of what the moment meant..

i want to write. that's all i care about now.
i want to write and then get into uni, and then write even more.
and then get a job and write again. :)

hello by the way. i forgot to mention i'm blogging. so erm.. i'm blogging. :)

kat.