simple times

i loooove joshua radin.

gaah speaking german mock exam tomorrow. the real one is only a week away too. and PE moderation, AND then of course a tonne more exams.

borrrrre.
cinema tomorrow though. happy clappy birthday jessica. i love you. you won't read this. but oh well, thought that counts.
although i'm SKINT. and that makes me angwy. :(

:D loving life other than that..

kat.

because i'm forever lost.

forever lost - the magic numbers.

nahhhh! school tomorrow. *sad*.
oh welll. you see, i wouldn't be overly bothered. but i am. why? because my freaking german oral mock exam is on wednesday. and we don't like those because they are big and scary. :o( haha..
i love ellie goulding. just gonna point that out as i'm listening to her songs.

so my second post since i started this hole 'lets start the blog again' movement.
i haven't much to say i must say. too much exam things buzzing through my head. BAHA i wish, not really. i'm just boring ;)

back to school tomorrow. but as my friend bry's status says, it is only the beginning of the end, as there is little to no school left now, only exam practice for 6 or so weeks, then study leave and school for what? a month? lovely.

so the music title is because magic numbers are so lovely headlining oceanfest this year! this, of course is nothing like the 'YAY' that came with jason mraz. however, it IS a good band, and i'm looking forward to hearing more of them. however, opening for them, or also on the same stage, not sure yet, is JOSHUA RADIN, and i have to say i am a VERY bg joshua radin fan so that's good. :)

well, that's all from me for now. :o)

if you haven't already, listen to all artists mentioned here. especially ellie goulding, she's AMAZING. afterall, she has won a brit before her career has even begun. :o

kat.

everybody stopped.

blogging, that is. so what a better idea than to restart? hello blogspot. i'm back, yes, me. why? because i have things to write. when? now.

so wow. it's been a while. my life in short has been simple. simple happiness, simple fun, simply shit. whatever simple can be, it's been it. but this blog is rarely about what's new, and more what's happened or what i've observed.

i'm just going to state, putting anything about my recent trip to auchwitz in words would be impossible unless you've been there. but to deem something as completely undescribable is 'nuff said methinks. so just go there, or read another review, because i don't think i'd even be able to try to write one that does any justice to it.

i've experienced a lot in the last few weeks. i remember around this time last year, every blog, post or secret was about finding myself. a year on and i'm not really sure that i have. but i've atleas trealised i don't need to anymore. because if i spend my whole life trying to find that, there'll be no time living it. so hello, it's me, i'm kat, and i'm suitabley incomplete.

most importantly, i'm back. so hi, hello, bonjour.

kat.

hey, soul sister.

you know the song. :)

wow. so it appears no one blogs anymore! whatever shall we do? i know, blog? :D
okay so. woah. what isn't there to talk about. i don't think i've ever been so desperate to get out and go somewhere. everything here is eating me alive. i just want to leave. i swear, i'm not going to last these last few months of school without going crazy. it's tedious and HORRIBLE.
the only travelling i do experience seems to be on the train home. home being the annoying word. coz that's where i'll end up. you travel for half an hour, and yous ee the country, and just as you think you're gonna get somewhere you have to get off because it's your stop. then you're driven back home, where everything starts again in just a matter of hours.
i've been tempted just to stay on the trian. to keep going. buy a ticket somewhere. anywhere. never happens. the guts are there, but the willpower isn't.

basically, life is tedious. i'm fed up, and i feel so unconfident lately. but who cares? if you're you, then everythings okay. :)

lots of love,

kat.

blogging.

29th january 2010.

today i became iller, captained a hockey team, won a hockey match, lost 3 hockey matches, let my best friend down, took a posh train, cried, laughed, smiled, realised my mum is the best person on my planet, realised i really miss my family, realised who my true friends are, decided to stop being horrible about everyone because they're all amazing people, and played guitar.

today was an average day.

right now i am writing a song. i don't know what the lyrics or the music is yet. because i'm not writing it down. (so not really writing a song tbh)

i'm happy. :) i think. i mean, yeah, i'm starting to think that i'm drifting from my closest friends, i'm a let down and an all round 'gets everything wrong all the time' person, but i'm happy. :)

i really like trains. :)
i decided this on the way home. the reason being when i'm on a train i feel like i'm floating. because i can't see the track and when the windows are really clean i put my head against the glass and it feels like i am just drifting through the trees. i also like trains because they feel like you're seeing life from the inside, not the outside. like instead of taking the windy roads you just dart straight through the middle but you aren't allowed to see where it takes you because before you know it you have to get off. like they're telling you that shortcuts never lead anywhere and you may see something for a moment, but you will have to take the long road to be able to make anything of what the moment meant..

i want to write. that's all i care about now.
i want to write and then get into uni, and then write even more.
and then get a job and write again. :)

hello by the way. i forgot to mention i'm blogging. so erm.. i'm blogging. :)

kat.

all of your life you've gone your own way, so give me this chance, and i'll go mine..

title: proud - matthew thomas

i haven't blogged in a while. and i don't expect many to still be checking whether i have. which i sprobably why i've chosen to blog here and not my tumblr.

i'm sick.
i don't know why, and i don't know what it is. but it won't go away, and for that i hate my body at the moment. :(
i wish it would go away. it's so annoying.

i guess there are times in your life where you wish you knew, what the heck was going on i mean. but you just don't. this is one of those times.
then there's those times where you wonde rwhat the heck you've done to deserve it. this is one of those times too.
and then, there's those times when you realise who is really there, and who offers their support, but really gives nothing.
there are the times when you have to fight. because walking away doesn't prove fast enough, and running means retracing tracks. so when forward is the only direction, and there's a giant barrier in the way, do you turn around and walk backwards, or do you break the barrier no matter how long and how hard it is?

in other news. happy birthday daddy. :) i love you. you've always shown me the light, even when your own began to dim. i'm glad to call myself your daughter, even after everything we've been through.

love hugs + barriers that are years old,

kat.

two thousand and ten.

woah. it's 2010! goodbye to the noughties and hello teenies! :D
so i'm SO sorry i haven't blogged in SO long, but i've been so busy and lazy to blog as i've been more on my tumblr :)
so i bet it's not just me that's noticed this WEATHER. i swear it's either snowing, windy, sleeting or raining 99% of the day. o.0 but that's okay, because my school's been shut for like a week longer than it should have been *happy dance*.
only problem is, i'm bored of being at home now. school was open today but the weather meant the effort of me going into school just wasn't worth it. :)
i'll be going in tomorrow though. :)

meanwhile. i have a bubba sister. :D:D very exciting stuff. :) the pictures are on my faceybook if you'd like to see her. :)

anyways, i know this has been so short but i don't have muchies to say. :P

lots of love,

katmunch