raise it up.

title: rabbit heart - florence and the machine.

hi there everyone. sorry i haven't blogged in so long, i've taken a lust for tumblr at the moment so blogging here has been scarce. :-) also, i'm on my computer a lot less, so that's why. not that many people read this really, but oh well.

so right now i'm sitting on my bed in pitch black with just my ipod on full blast in my ears. bit of death cab for cutie is anyones guilty pleasure.
'what's the time?' i hear you say. 4.15pm. not too late, but dark nevertheless.
the early darkness starts to make me more tired. infact, i wish it was summer, things were so much brighter then. :-)

christmas!

i didn't do too much. was woken at around 7 to open freaking presents, of which i recieved two. (N). but that okay, as i also got a stocking and a wad of cash which suits me nicely. although it was more than the presents. it was just nice to have everyone happy for a while. :-)

brother came home too. it was nice for the first couple of days, but i guess you can OVERstay sometimes. i mean, i love him lots, but he is now 'bored' of me, and so i can do little but to hate him back until he comes 'round.

ahhh.. the fray. how lovely. :-)
hahaha my ipod is on shuffle.

it's funny because there's barely anyone who's actually gonna read this. but i kinda like the outlet and to talk to myself is a bit. weird.

so why not be brutally honest, lets pretend NO ONE will read this, eh?

hello diary,

i'm worried lately, because it seems many of my friends have changed their opinions of me. whether it be being completely off with me (undoubtedly fair enough as i accused them of being bisexual), or just changing their opinion of the way i am. it's just annoying. i think 2010 is going to be my year of not as much caring. i mean i love ALL of my friends, but that's all i ever do. and it still seems that some where along the line i'm fucking up. whether i'm bein too 'selfish' because i can't just be friends with everyone or i'm just a pure 'bitch'. i think i'm going to start being my COMPLETE self, not changing to peoples ideal version of me, and just being myself with EVERYONE, if they don't like that, then that's their problem, right? :-) i can't be who you want me to be, as much as i love ya. they say it's all about change and adaptation, so why not try staying put, and just being yourself. :)

jason mraz. i love you. :D haha. - shuffle, again. ;)

ah. merry christmas world.
i'm bored now.
this was fun!
i hope no one reads this, it's SO WEIRD. sorry! :P

love, hugs + mr. a-z.

kat.

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow..

title : let it snow - dean martin.

hey homies. :-)
guess what? you'll never get it..
IT'S CHRISTMAS. ;D

okay, so overall, i wasn't that excited. infact i'm still not 'eyes popping out of face jumping around stabbing people' excited, but the christmas spirit has finally taken it's toll. :-) i'm not sure why i'm not as excited this year. i think it's because i forgot it was chritmas until like 2 weeks before, and then i got ill so i was focusing on that.
but it's fine because I'M BETTER NOW. ;D - ish.

so anyways, i know i haven't been overly blogging, due to the reason above, but don't worry your little heads because i'm here! :-) my 131st blog ever. :-o

so in chulmleigh, they have a lighting thing for charity every year and this year a competitor lives just down my road. the house was gorgeous, and as soon as night time drew in i had to go take a picccture. :-) it doesn't do it enough justice because my camera kept playing up so it's quite blurry. :-(
that's all for now. if you would like more regular updates on what i'm doing, and are interested in typography/photography/general awesome quotes then head over to my tumblr page ; www.starsfallingdown.tumblr.com :-) enjoy my friends, and have a very VERY merry christmas. :-)

love, hugs + two turtle doves.

kat.

half of my heart's got a grip on the situation, half of my heart takes time..

title: half of my heart - john mayer featuring taylor swift.

A-M-A-Z-I-N-G song. ;D if you haven't already; LISTEN.

so hello there. :-)

it's.. what is it? 8 sleeps 'til the big day?

ahh christmas. again? it's gonna be my sixteenth one! ahh jeez, you'd think the excitment would rub off - which it did, but now i'm BUZZING. :D

so i started this blog like.. 2 hours ago and then forgot, made a cheesecake, wrapped presents then came back. dork. :P
hey, i just recieved a congratulations from the history department. LOL! awh.

so relationships..
isn't it funny, how there's always a person you can click with no matter how far apart you've been? i mean we all have that person right? whether it be a parent, a best friend, a long distant relative, an ex, whatever it is, it's always just 'fine' when you talk again. just 'perfect'. :-)
i've experienced a few of these moments. and i have to say it's the best feeling in the world. just being able to fall right back into place, effortlessly.
all i'm saying is if you have that with someone, anyone, you should cherish that. i never realised how rare and spontaneous it is to KNOW you have someone there, foralways, no matter the time spent apart. so this one's for you guys and all those missing people who really aren't missing at all. go for it. give them a call, you'll be surprised. :-)

love, hugs + mistletoe wishes,

kat. :-)

in the middle of the night when i'm in this dream it's like a million little stars spelling out your name..

title: untouchable - taylor swift.

one of my favourite songs from her new 'fearless' album. amazing amazing album from an equally amazing artist, i honestly don't care who hates her, she's so talented. :-)

i'd like to do a blog straight from my mind, that for once i do not think too hard about what i'm going to write or ponder over different situations.

i just watched the movie 'bandslam'. it was so amazing. i'm serious. i mean i've never been into this whole disney scene, but i've gotta say, the film was AWESOME. totally recommend it. anyways, it COMPLETELY influenced me in such a random way. like i know this is no american high school, but i'd like to make more of an effort with how i AM around different people i don't know. and that i really don't make much effort with things such as guys or anything anymore. be nice to get back into the frame of mind that yeah, it's school, but it's also the main part of my life and i take that SO forgranted. :)

ahh, 'forever and always' an amazing song and the piano is sensational. i want to learn it, but there are no sheets or tutorials online. i think i'm gonna try work it out by ear when/if i can. :-)

do you ever get those moments when you're in a completer state of thought? you know those moments when like everything seems so special and the best music and perfect surroundings can just make you think. i'm like that right now. it's rare i get a total sense of peace and quiet until the night time, i think that's maybe why i sleep so late.
you know, it's funny, i don't even know who reads these blogs. infact, i have a bet it's no more than 5 people. but i like that. hello. :-)

it's 00.23am i really can't be bothered to go to sleep when i'm in such a thought provoking state of mind. but i have a hunch my life from this day onwards will change. i don't know why, and i don't know how, but i've been told to ALWAYS trust my instincts. i guess we'll just have to wait and see.

love, hugs and the rest is still unwritten,

kat.

everything looks perfect from far away..

title: such great heights - the postal service.

have you ever wondered if there's something we're supposed to do?
whether although we don't know how we're going to end up or what's going to happen until it does, it was always going to happen anyway?
have you ever wondered how pretty the world is?
whether it's too beautiful to have been created, and that MAYBE it's only possible because it's THAT spontaneous?

lately, questions seem to be my main forte. i have been questioning everything and i don't know why. why did my life have to work out how it was? is there somethig i'm supposed to do but i just haven't realised yet? :)

i'm confused about my future too. i've decided law isn't for me. and i really want to do journalism. writing was always going to be my thing anyways, lets be honest. :)

lately i've become so musical too. it's become my OUTLET :) i mean i'm finding i rely less and less on my friends and so much more on my independence. i'm starting to wonder if this is a good or bad thing?

well, i don't know. conversations are forever being had at home. and bitching is forever occuring at school, i think the subject of change is the core of everything at the moment. but is there really a set route? and can we change that?

in the words of taylor swift, i guess we should never be too afraid to 'jump then fall'.

love, hugs + music and lyrics,

kat.

because i can.

hello there squishies.
i KNOW i haven't blogged in ages.
i also KNOW i'm a failblogger.
but it's FINE. :) i've been SOO busy

so here's a RANDOM squishtogether of my life as it is at the moment. i shall resort to bullet points as i physically cannot organise my life in any other way.

- loz came round and we had an amazing weekend.
- i've gotten well interested in baking again.
- my brother bought me a full size drumkit as a birthday surprise.
- i don't want to do law anymore.
- i am debating my journalism career once again.
- i got an A* in my geography mock exam.
- i got REALLY happy.
- i got really down.
- i really miss some people.
- i'm not THAT excited about xmas this year.
- i can't wait 'til xmas though.

BAMJABAMBAM. there we go.

simples. (-:

see you gays soon.

love hugs + points of bullet,

kat.

before we take this road, before you change my mind..

title: to love again - alesha dixon.

i'm not sure the intention of this here blog. mainly because i haven't blogged in so long. but also because i need to let some steam off.
i don't know what's wrong with me lately. i feel like i'm losing touch with who i really was. i guess i had the same thing when i was about.. thirteen, but since then i've been fine. whereas lately i've been feeling so out of touch with myself it's unbelievable.
i think to be honest, i just need to shut myself up sometimes. i've realised i'm far more bitchy than i ever was, whether it be down to influence or the fact that year 11 has made me think i'm everything i'm not. i'm gonna change. i hate being this moody. i'ma try be a bit more upbeat and social. coz this is killing me :-( anyways, to anyone who's ever felt like i've been off with them, moody, completely two faced or horrible towards them. sorry. :-)

so today i had my english presentation. i feel it went pretty well, although i get so scared at audiences i often freeze up, so i'll be happy to get a B or C for this one. :-)
there's not much else to report. got a charity netball match going on on the 11th so park school people PAY TO WATCH it's for a good cause. also there's christmas concert when now? 16th? i dunno. but i wanna go to that tooooo. :-)

so not much happening really. i've got like zilch to say today, but i promised myself 125 posts ago i would never delete a single word of my blog. and i don't plan on changing now. :-)

love, hugs and emotional blank,

kat.