the great indoors

no one really ever wins, in heartbreak warfare. - john mayer.

ohhai there. i know i haven't blogged in a while, i've been too busy being a miserable fuckwit.

it's been a damn good day actually. finally got my eyebrows waxed because they were frustrating me, actually managed to get a tiny bit of work done, and stayed at ali's last night which was lovely AND i didn't have to get up early this morning tehe.

i've been thinking lately about life, like the deep rooted fucker i am, and i've come to the conclusion that i need to take it easy. i swear i put pressure upon myself and it wasn't until it all fell down on me at once, that i realised that i wasn't making any attempts to hold anything up at all.

i'm really fucking thankful for everything and everyone in my life. friends, family, everything. i really do appreciate all the things i have around me, when there are people who literally have nothing. having a chat with mummy this weekend made me realise just how much time i don't spend at home, spend working, or spend actually getting to know my friends, rather than just preaching about how great we are.

i'm really going to make an effort to try to understand people more, make sure i have a fucking good time, and stop taking things so seriously. i mean, afterall, life's too short right?

have a lovely week guys, i know i'm going to. :)

kat.

because there's everything to risk, with this.

the title lyrics are from a song i'm currently writing called 'the risk'. i'll post the lyrics when i'm finished writing it.

hi guys. :)

at the moment i'm struggling with this whole work business.

i know that you can call it procrastination and every teen is doing it. but i genuinely do care about my grades, and somehow i just CANNOT do the work. i cannot even get up i'm so unmotivated, all i want to do it write music and play and talk to friends. it's awful.

i need to get over this seriously because it's going to kill me.

i've got two days left of the holidays and i've not done a thing. not only are my lecturers going to be mad, but i'm never going to get into any uni's at this rate.

but no fucks given because beth's coming around later and so we can forget our failed lives for atleast a few hours.

happy easter everyonneeee. :')

kat.

everyone asked me 'who the hell is she?'

lol sorry, listening to mcfly :|

wow.

SHE'S JUST A LONER WITH A SEXY ATTITUDE. yup datz me.

so hellooo. i'm bored as hell.

i've done absolutely nothing in terms of college work, which is always promising considering the entry requirements for my desired universities are a's. yup well done kat.

but it's all good because i'm going out tomorrow night with a few of my favourites.

love my life at the moment. it's sunny, it's happy, it's all fucking good man.

lolololol what is this post.

i've just got mcfy in the background and now i can't concentrate without jumping on my bed hahhahahahhaahahaha.

DOO DOO DOO DOO DOO DOOOOOOO.

have a lovely weekend guys, i hope i will.

ps. i fucking love my friends.

there's a lot going on in my mind at the moment. i think i need a night out.

<3

when will i be more than a novelty to you?

so i'm pretty sure that life itself is difficult to comprehend. not a day passes where i don't wonder why i'm here or what the hell is going on around the globe. but lately i've noticed how much emotions literally control us.

while some people literally don't go deeper than a puddle, there are people with oceans of thoughts and emotions that could snap at any minute.

i think, being a person that is probably a pretty deep thinker, i find it easier to read people than some might, but it just got me thinking how precious people really are. day in day out we see, and speak to the same people right? but who's to say what they're really thinking? for as much thought that i put into my day, 6 billion other people's minds are swimming in that ocean.

to me, that's fucking beautiful, but beyond comprehendible.

i challenge you guys, to just think, and i mean think harder. i challenge you to listen to lyrics, rather than the music. yep, someone wrote that song. each and every one. someone wrote those books. thoughts, spilled.

i fucking love words.

this is the most off the cuff blog post ever.

but i don't even care.

who are we to be emotional? - ellie goulding

oh hi, blogger

to be neglected is a pretty shit thing. so i decided to come back to blogger after a year and continue my life. afterall, this is where i first starting posting.

although i have a tumblr now, i wouldn't count it as a blog. blogspot is probably the only place you can reasonably blog without it turning into a popularity contest so i'm guessing i'll start back here when i need to vent.

wow, i don't believe my posts on here go all the way back to 2009, that's crazy!

but yeah, hello again. and to anyone reading this, old and new, welcome. :-)

there's a lot swimming around in my mind at the moment. new friends, old friends, not friends at all.

there's been a whole lot of new people crashing in at once and yeah, it's freakin' beautiful. i'm not really sure how i can explain it without sounding totally cliche, but i guess it's true that even if someone never really gets you, i think that's sometimes better than if they really really did.

i think i've been spending too much time looking for someone to understand me. i mean, you want that to a degree right? but not so that they can read your every thought. i think the best thing is to have someone that genuinely wants to find out more about you. someone that enjoys discovering who you are WITH you, doing stuff together until you both get to a place where you start to get to know yourself as a person.

i think that's the best thing about my friends so far. they're teaching me that you don't need to understand everything about a person to get along well with them, you just need to have to want to understand those things.

oh, you? hi. i love you, thanks for making my life a damn sight better lately. i think it's pretty hard to find a person that won't screw you over or give up on you at first instant. i also think it's pretty hard to find someone that isn't shallow but doesn't kill you with deepness. i think this is where our journey starts and i can't wait to explore shit with you. i know i say it everytime but i've never met someone like you. and for as many people i've said that to before, i've never meant it as much as i do right now.

so hi there. :) welcome back to my blog. or if you never came before, i hope you're never left just standing in the crowd.

kat. <3

i just thought this was so amazing.

apparently this is what this girl's (that i follow on tumblr) psychologist told her this today.
''He said that the majority of people live with in a box, and that’s their entire reality. All the see is the inside of the box, and they’re ‘asleep’ to anything else. People that have suffered from some form of mental illness are ‘awake’, because they’ve seen reality outside the box. He said no matter how hard people try to put that person back into the box, they will never fit, because they’ve seen something beyond it all.''


i've never had a mental illness, but i feel like this all the god damn time.

kat.

your biggest mistake.

ellie goulding - your biggest mistake.

hello there! :)
totally have new hair! om-gosh.
well, not THAT new, just a little lottle redder. :) i loves it lots.
it's not very obvious in pictures but here you are anyways.


can i just state i live for ellie goulding? okay cool.

anyways, i saw an awesome panda hat in river island, not to replace my koala hat gus, but just generally to add to my animal hat collection, and ellie goulding has one which is pretty rad, SO I WANT IT. :) way not as cool as the tiger one she wore to T4OTB mind.
it's 12 pound though so i'll have to save up because currently i'm too busy paying for hair dye, friend debts for concerts + wasting money to have noticed my fashion so it's kindof taken a back seat. charity shops ftw next month i think.
+ i really want the playsuit from river island + a denim shirt. grr. + a couple tee's from topman + och is lithe letters 'Kk' on it for my name, which is like 18 quid too. omfg, i need more money. you see, i'd get a job but they all hate me + i'm practically unemployable. + also mommy already gives me 100 a month AND pays my 40 quid phone bill, which is awful coz it shouldn't even be that much! :O oops.?
so basically, i'm skint + moaning AGAIN. what's new scooby doo eh?

blah blah blah. today has been boring, i ran around with puppykins for a bit and stroked my rabbit. *dork*

that's my life, a bore. i'm doing a big fat nothing tomorrow either. i should join the gym i'm a right fatty also. i'm totally joining soon, i need to ask mummy. lardypants.

i love the way no one reads this so i can read what i bloody like. infact, does anyone actually read this? comment if you do kk? i wanna see, i get so much bloody spam. >.<

also i saw shrek 4 yesterday and it was totally rad. FYI, totally recommend. way too hyped about toy story too right?

kat.