oh hi, blogger

to be neglected is a pretty shit thing. so i decided to come back to blogger after a year and continue my life. afterall, this is where i first starting posting.

although i have a tumblr now, i wouldn't count it as a blog. blogspot is probably the only place you can reasonably blog without it turning into a popularity contest so i'm guessing i'll start back here when i need to vent.

wow, i don't believe my posts on here go all the way back to 2009, that's crazy!

but yeah, hello again. and to anyone reading this, old and new, welcome. :-)

there's a lot swimming around in my mind at the moment. new friends, old friends, not friends at all.

there's been a whole lot of new people crashing in at once and yeah, it's freakin' beautiful. i'm not really sure how i can explain it without sounding totally cliche, but i guess it's true that even if someone never really gets you, i think that's sometimes better than if they really really did.

i think i've been spending too much time looking for someone to understand me. i mean, you want that to a degree right? but not so that they can read your every thought. i think the best thing is to have someone that genuinely wants to find out more about you. someone that enjoys discovering who you are WITH you, doing stuff together until you both get to a place where you start to get to know yourself as a person.

i think that's the best thing about my friends so far. they're teaching me that you don't need to understand everything about a person to get along well with them, you just need to have to want to understand those things.

oh, you? hi. i love you, thanks for making my life a damn sight better lately. i think it's pretty hard to find a person that won't screw you over or give up on you at first instant. i also think it's pretty hard to find someone that isn't shallow but doesn't kill you with deepness. i think this is where our journey starts and i can't wait to explore shit with you. i know i say it everytime but i've never met someone like you. and for as many people i've said that to before, i've never meant it as much as i do right now.

so hi there. :) welcome back to my blog. or if you never came before, i hope you're never left just standing in the crowd.

kat. <3

i just thought this was so amazing.

apparently this is what this girl's (that i follow on tumblr) psychologist told her this today.
''He said that the majority of people live with in a box, and that’s their entire reality. All the see is the inside of the box, and they’re ‘asleep’ to anything else. People that have suffered from some form of mental illness are ‘awake’, because they’ve seen reality outside the box. He said no matter how hard people try to put that person back into the box, they will never fit, because they’ve seen something beyond it all.''


i've never had a mental illness, but i feel like this all the god damn time.

kat.

your biggest mistake.

ellie goulding - your biggest mistake.

hello there! :)
totally have new hair! om-gosh.
well, not THAT new, just a little lottle redder. :) i loves it lots.
it's not very obvious in pictures but here you are anyways.


can i just state i live for ellie goulding? okay cool.

anyways, i saw an awesome panda hat in river island, not to replace my koala hat gus, but just generally to add to my animal hat collection, and ellie goulding has one which is pretty rad, SO I WANT IT. :) way not as cool as the tiger one she wore to T4OTB mind.
it's 12 pound though so i'll have to save up because currently i'm too busy paying for hair dye, friend debts for concerts + wasting money to have noticed my fashion so it's kindof taken a back seat. charity shops ftw next month i think.
+ i really want the playsuit from river island + a denim shirt. grr. + a couple tee's from topman + och is lithe letters 'Kk' on it for my name, which is like 18 quid too. omfg, i need more money. you see, i'd get a job but they all hate me + i'm practically unemployable. + also mommy already gives me 100 a month AND pays my 40 quid phone bill, which is awful coz it shouldn't even be that much! :O oops.?
so basically, i'm skint + moaning AGAIN. what's new scooby doo eh?

blah blah blah. today has been boring, i ran around with puppykins for a bit and stroked my rabbit. *dork*

that's my life, a bore. i'm doing a big fat nothing tomorrow either. i should join the gym i'm a right fatty also. i'm totally joining soon, i need to ask mummy. lardypants.

i love the way no one reads this so i can read what i bloody like. infact, does anyone actually read this? comment if you do kk? i wanna see, i get so much bloody spam. >.<

also i saw shrek 4 yesterday and it was totally rad. FYI, totally recommend. way too hyped about toy story too right?

kat.

lets take life, nice and easssssy!

take me to a higher plane - kate nasssh.

NASHER! :) i love kate nash, my life is complete with her music along with others.

SO OMG, my wall! :O hahaha. yesterday, me and shannen stuck a ton of paper on one of my walls and so now you can draw on my wall, it's pretty bare at the moment, but i'm hoping by christmas pretty much all my friends will have contributed to it, what do you say guys? :)the wall so far. :) v plain, but it's cool. :D, getting there. :D
created 12th July 2010.

in other news, me and the akers went on a picnic yesterday to the beach, t'was fun but we got too hot so we came home again and made the wall, after buying a mint milkshake at cafe nero. :o)

tomorrow i'm going to paolo! :D can't wait. i'll let you know how it is. :D

and how do i get rid of my korean COMMENT SPAM? -.-

talking of koreans, i really love their style.
HAHAHA.

'til tomorrow squishies.

kat.

it's like a got no chance at all.

superman - joe brooks.
afternoon sailors. :)once again kat has been a BAD blogger. :( but it's been a few VERY interesting events so, i thought that i would blog about them, considering this way i will be able to remember them always. :)
OCEANFEST'10 along with being a bad blogger i'm also awful when it comes to photography. so i never got ANY photo's of oceanfest, although there are some on their faithful website! :)kat + shan! :)
Broooooks, so HOT! :)
the headline act : magic numbers! 'she don't love me like youuuuu!' - katshan REMIX. ;) haha.


BEACH + SMILEY'S '10
originally supposed to be a beach trip for everyone, not so many people could turn up short notice, so long and behold the trip that came about, and imo was SO much better anyways. :)
the reason i have ears is because gus, my new hat from oceanfest, insisted on coming with me. :)

wayfarer pub, instow. :) smiles char kat + shan. :) sam hadn't arrived yet. :)

was an all round AMAZING time, i don't think i've laughed so much in this long, thanks guys, for a BRILLIANT night. :) JUST DANCE hahahhaa. 'what is this?' 'SPICE GIRLS' 'i'm not SHIMMYING' hahahaha. :) and the jellyfish beach, made me feel sick and crusty. ;)

T4OTB
the crowd when we arrived wasn't EVEN funny, but i loved the atmosphere anyways, so i was willing for the wait. i've never been to t4 before so i guess i wasn't sure what to expect. it was also hard for us to see EVERYTHING because there was SO much we didn't, but apart from that, me and my trusty bestest friend lauren, made our way through the crowds, to the WONDERFUL festival.
the wonderful pixie lott!
the line up included : pixie lott, ellie goulding, jason derrruloooo (which i always have to sing now?), jls, alexandra burke, plan b, example - both i didn't get to see. :(, n dubz, tinchy stryyyyder, taio cruzz, chipmunk, kids in glass houses, diana vickers, NEED I GO ON?!

it was a LOVERLY day and i enjoyed every minute. more pictures on my facebook.

PROM'10 + AFTER PARTY.
i LOVED this night, it really was HILARIOUS, and lovely, if maybe a bit overrun. :) was lovely to see everyone again, and looking so beautiful too. :)

the only one's doing the macarena? haha.

my FAVOURITE people!

what a lovely night we all had, and a lovely way to end school. i'll miss you all..

SO THIS WEEK!
still to come are days out with friends + a visit to see mr paolo nutini at the eden project, i couldn't BE more excited. :)

goodbye for now. :)

kat.

say what you need to say.

say - john mayer.

aaahh well. tbh, i'm alright really. not much to complain about today. gahaa.
john mayer, jack johnson, gavin degraw getting me through my exams tbh. :) soo many! can't wait until oceanfest as a light relief. :) so exciting, if only we SORTED OUT THE CAMPING.
hrmph. i think my favourite thing about looking forward to college is meeting new people. although i love everyone so much, i feel out of place a lot of times. i'm a jagged jigsaw puzzle methinks. :) different sides of me fit diff places. :)

kat.

maybe, i would disappear without you.

pretty eyes - jason reeves.

the blog is back.

not sure why, just had the urge.

okay, so the lowdown is, i'm DYING of stress right now. i actually am bricking it for tomorrow. everyone seems so clever, and confident. everyone seems like they're saying they've done nothing, but they're so calm, which means they must have, right? i'm so scared. :/
i guess i don't need maths or anything, but not even just maths, EVERYTHING is shitting me out about these upcoming two weeks. and i'm stupid stupid stupid to have wasted this week not doing ANY revision. i'm going to have to get my head down foreals now. there's not another option, it's only work that's going to get me through these, not losing touch, not now.

kat.