afternoon.
i've revamped my blog so hopefully a lot more posting will occur within the coming few weeks, as and when i need an outlet.
i've been thinking and over thinking in the last few days. as usual. i'm not in a bad mood, i'm just mellow. surprisingly, considering it's the half term, i think this is the first time i haven't got really excited about who i'm seeing or what i'm doing. i'm tired of most of the people in my life, who tend to either just make snap judgements, or dip in and out of my life at their discretion. instead this half term has been pretty self reflective so far.
i've been pondering over university prospectus' and pretty much the 'goals' in my life again. which probably isn't the best idea because that always makes me feel like an idiot for not working and being a fuckwit while everyone works their asses off.
saying that, i'm so excited for university and for driving (i finally booked my test!). i can't wait to be able to escape. i just want to live every moment to the complete maximum. i'm fed up of dwelling on situations, i just want someone to spend every moment with, stand by my side through everything y'know.
i've got some amazing friends. there's only a few, but they're beautiful. i think i need to start living for these moments rather than waiting for things to change.
and yet while i sit here blogging away, i can't help thinking that something's missing. :( i hope this feeling doesn't last long. fuckfuckfuck.
kat.
'what if you should decide that you don't want me there in your life?'
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