you know that feeling?

you know that feeling you get, when you just, you want to be somebody, you know?
you wanna be somebody so bad that you start something, more than one thing, that you think will make you totally unique or special. but then, you realise that another million people all over the world are doing the same damn thing. and then you realise, you're never going to be just somebody. because somebody is just a little part of everybody. and then you remember that you gotta stop fighting. and you look, at what you have got, rather than what you haven't, and you finally understand that what you were fighting for was right infront of you the whole damn time. and then you feel like you've wasted all the time fighting, when you could have been enjoying all of this. then before you know it, everything's shown in proportion.
yeah, that feeling? well, i've been having that a lot lately..

i've been thinking. as usual. over thinking, you may say.. and i'm fed up. i'm fed up of sitting here and having nothing to do but go out to the same places, or sit at home and spend all day on the internet because i have nothing else to do. i want to go and explore. i'm done here, i'm done with the 'country' life and the false expectations everyone leads. i want to go someplace else. i wanna go explore. why's that so much to ask?

meh, whatever, i'll get over it eh?

lots of hugs.

kat.